Hi everyone today is otd and despite our bfp earlier this week, it's now a bfn 😔I've been so worried about this because first I was spotting and then properly bleeding but kept trying to tell myself some ladies do bleed and are fine or it could be a vanishing twin because there were two embies but I think I knew really, I think you just do.
We're just devastated, to have it there then taken away feels so cruel, 4 cycles with nothing but heartache and feeling like a failure at the end of each. I know so many of you unfortunately know how that feels. My usually super jolly and ever-positive hubby is struggling more than I've ever seen him do before 😢
My SIL put on facebook a post about seeing their babies heartbeat and it's just broken us..why not us, what did we do wrong..
Anyway that's a lot of self pity and I'm sorry for the doom..I'd love to say I'll come back fighting but I honestly think that might be it for us. I'm not sure I have it in me to do a 5th cycle, not to mention the cost. I wish everyone else so much luck and I'm so pleased there has been some good news here this week. Much love to you all and thank you for all the kind words and support, an already tough time would have been so much harder without you all xxx