I've just joined this forum in a desperate attempt to change my current negative outlook. I am 36 years old (37 soon) and hubby is 41. We've been trying to conceive for over 3 years (we didn't meet until our 30's) and finally got tested last year as I was hoping for peace of mind - as everyone kept saying you just have to relax - yeah right! Turns out hubby has low sperm count, motility etc and I appear to have 1 blocked tube and PCO. I say appear as that's what the scanner said but our follow up appointment has been resceduled twice so far and isn't until March - the scan was in September! I'm so frustrated with the hospital delay as I feel in limbo, however had we not gone to the NHS we wouldn't have known this. Our first tests were private as it was quicker but they didn't look at my tubes so we wouldn't have known. We've been told we need ICSI at a cost of nearly 10k as our NHS has cut all funding so this is an added stress as we don't have this. I also need to lose weight which I'm struggling to motivate myself to do as it all feels so hopeless. I'm currently signed off work with stress and get teary when I see babies in public or baby clothes in shops. And to top it off some family members have not been understanding and think we're exaggerating things and so now I avoid them. Has anyone had similar experiences and does anyone have any advice on how to manage these feelings? All I keep worrying about is will I ever be a mum??