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Never gets easier 😢

So after my trigger injection before Christmas and feeling so hopeful about trying naturally, AF arrived this morning with a vengeance and I forgot just how much this hurt.

I guess I forgot about the disappointment of each month as I’d kind of come to accept that IVF was the only way for us so today the stomach cramps and bleeding feel like the biggest smack in the face that after 5 years I actually let myself believe this could of been it - what a fool! 🤦‍♀️

I’ve got my hysteroscopy end of Feb and it was originally agreed I would start my FET either medicated or natural straight after but now I need to be scanned again to see if I do actually ovulate. Don’t even want to ring my clinic at the mo, why does it never get easier 😭

Think il spend the rest of the day hibernating at home with the dogs 🐶

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So sorry to hear this. Curl up with the doggies for today and maybe you’ll feel up to ringing the clinic tomorrow. None of this gets any easier at all. Take care xx

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Sorry to hear this. I had you in mind and thought yes, this could be your time. But truly at times it doesn't get easier.

Please use some pain killers and take care of yourself. I also dread seeing AF, the pains atimes and even the blood itself just dampens me.

Let's hope your next FET gives you your desired baby.

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Massive hugs 💕 xx

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Awww sorry to hear you're having a rubbish day! It is hard having the constant reminder that we're defo not pregnant. God I think I even try for those miracle conceptions and been told little or no chance....doesnt stop me hoping though. Hope you're cosied up with your poochies now. Sending hugs xx

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Thank you, think your right - deep down we all hold onto a bit of hope each month we wouldn’t keep going otherwise would we. Hope your doing okay xx

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Just sending hugs, hope your dogs are snuggled up close to you xx

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Thank you, they sure are - can’t beat a cocker spaniel cuddle xx

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ahhhhh bless you, totally relate to this. i am always amazed how i manage to forget the 2 weeks despair & throw myself into 2 weeks of hope and every single month the cycle of grief starts again.

be kind to yourself. sending love & positive vibes ✨💕✨💕

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Sending lots of love. x

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Sending big hugs and love your way! Xxx 🤗💗 xxx

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I'm so sorry to hear this lovely. If i've learnt anything over the last few months it's that it never seems to get any easier. I really hope you get some answers when you next see your clinic. Can't beat a snuggle with your fur babies, ours have been our rock throughout our journey so far. Take time for yourself tonight and hopefully you'll feel a little better in the morning. Remember how strong you are. Sending you BIG hugs xxx

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Thanks Poppy, il ring my clinic today I’ve got to be scanned again to see if I ovulate naturally as to what FET I do. Definitely id be lost without my pups, they literally keep me going.

Hope clomids going okay for you xx

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Take care and i hope the scan goes ok. Let us know how things go. We have 2 cats and they always know when we're not feeling great, we'd be lost without them too.

Awaiting scan on Friday to see how i'm responding so won't know until then. Also need to await bloods to see if my progesterone has risen high enough. I hate all this waiting xxx

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Spoke to the clinic and it’s next Wednesday feel like its never ending at the moment. There amazing aren’t they animals how they just know.

Good luck for your scan Friday, I know what you mean about the waiting it’s the tough part of this journey that I don’t think we ever get use to xx

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I hope things go ok for you next Wednesday, i have everything crossed for you. Let us know how you get on.

Thanks lovely, just would like to know either way if things are working xxx

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So sorry to hear this!! I know exactly how the monthly hope feels - I still find myself thinking maybe this will be ‘our month’. You allow yourself dare to dream.

Look after yourself & snuggle into your fur babies!! xx

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It’s hard isn’t allowing ourselves to dream and then the massive disappointment. I underestimated just how hard id take it. Hope your doing okay x

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Sorry to hear this. I am feeling the same today as the usual af spotting starting yesterday. I am also living in hope of a natural BFP, every month feels such a let down! I also have a hysteroscopy in feb , fingers crossed we get some answers. Hopefully you will find out that you do ovulate, it’s hard to reconcile these problems with the af witch when she rears her head! Enjoy your doggy cuddles xx

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Sorry your going through it to, I think it’s the dreaming that keeps us going though. I’ve always been told I don’t ovulate, that just want to see if my MMC could of triggered it didn’t even know that was possible. Hysterocopy seems to be a popular thing at the mo, hopefully it’ll bring us both answers xx

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Sorry to hear this. Sending you big hugs xx

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So sorry it hasn't worked for you after everything. Take care of yourself. Perhaps enjoy something you couldn't otherwise, glass of wine or whatever you enjoy. Thinking of you xx

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It’s so difficult to not get your hopes up every month. And then all the period hormones coupled with the depression of yet another period makes it even worse 😞.

I’m so sorry you feel so rubbish, I hope your day with the dogs helped a little bit

xx

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