So I've been away for a fair few months after our first and only round of NHS funded IVF failing end of Feb and nothing frozen.
Since then been trying to get myself in a much better place ready to have a self funded round of IVF at a clinic much closer to us. We plan to do this October once we are back from a wedding in Australia. So with all the time I've spent doing therapy and counselling I've managed to pull myself together and started to feel really positive!
However last weekend my husbands best friend whomwe are visiting in Australia announced that they are expecting there first baby in February next year...... kinda hit me hard and I felt I was slipping away from all my positive work I have been doing for months..... that was Saturday, then Thursday this week my brother asked to see me (he's 7 years younger at 26, with a Girlfriend (22years of age) that nobody likes as she treats him like dirt, they have been together for 1 year!) upon calling my brother to ask why I knew in my stomach what he wanted to see me for and I was right.... to announce he and his girlfriend have had an "accident" and she is 4 weeks pregnant.
Now I know this sounds spiteful and I don't want it to be but she has tried everything to make sure my brother doesn't go anywhere and I would put money on the fact she has trapped him!!!
I'm literally in bits, I've cried constantly for the past 3 days and I literally just have no idea what to do! We have been trying for 6 years now, she is very well aware of this and I feel heartbroken because of it!!
Now I know it's life and people fall pregnant ect but I can't help but feel so alone - I feel broken!
Is there anyone else feeling this way or am I totally overreacting and just being selfish?