Hey you amazing bunch. Needing some moral support and thought I’d come to the only people who truly know what this is like and who can help make it better. 😘 Don’t know whether it’s the arrival of a new year, the fact I feel crap after my laparoscopy, my hormones being all out of kilter; or all the above - but I’ve been very tearful yesterday and today at the thought of our upcoming donor egg cycle. We are going out to Greece on 7th Jan to have blood tests, scans, devise treatment plan and provide semen for the cycle. Until now I’ve been very positive about it all. Now I can’t help feel sad that it’s come down to using another woman’s eggs to do what should be the most natural thing in the whole world; after all that’s happened the last 6 years. We’ve come close a couple times. But not to be. I don’t doubt this is the right move for us. I want one more decent shot at carrying a child, our child, even if it’s not biologically mine. But I still feel sad. This is without doubt the scariest thing I (we) have ever embarked on. I have found strength from the depths of despair many a time. I just hope I have a little strength left in me, cos i have a feeling I’m going to need it.
Sorry for being a bit of a Negative Nelly. Much love to you all xx