I had IVF back in August that resulted in a MMC at 9 weeks in October. Following a 6 week wait to get my period back, my Consultant suggested a FET with 2 of our 5 remaining frozen blasts on my first cycle post miscarriage. We weren’t expecting this to be an option, but decided just to go with it. I am now 5 weeks pregnant!
However, I had spotting days 5-8 post transfer and while I have had 2 blood tests to check HCG levels which were more than doubling within two days (over 1900 on day 19) I am still worried it’s all going to go wrong again. I.e. I’ll get to my scan, which we’ve decided not to have until 8 weeks as that’s when the embryo stopped growing the last time, and there will be nothing there.
I feel totally different this time, in that I feel fine. I know I’m only 5 weeks, and last time I had moderate OHSS, but having no discernible symptoms is freaking me out. Coupled with the fact I am on top-up progesterone (it was a natural FET) which may delay a miscarriage happening if it’s going to.
I’m going mad I know! We’ve had wonderful news at the end of an awful year and I should feel joyous. At least we know now my body can get pregnant (more than once), but I just can’t relax! Is it just me or is this normal for anyone that has miscarried before?!
Any tips and/or reassurance gratefully received!
I guess in the end it’s a horrible waiting game...and having vocalised here how I am actually feeling has in itself helped me somewhat. I’m too scared this time to even tell the family the ‘good’ news.