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Heartbroken

How many times am I going to have to poas before I get to the point where I decide enough is enough, and just give up trying?

12dp5dt, I’ve been really really good and waited till my otd, only to be greeted by that 1 vertical line which tells me, yet again, I’m not having a baby.

I’m utterly heartbroken. DH, ever the optimist, says to wait a few days and try again if af doesn’t arrive.

I just want to scream 😢😢😢

I think, I’m the back of my mind I knew it hadn’t worked, but there’s always that little glimmer of hope isn’t there!? And then it’s dashed, and your world comes crumbling down.

Sorry for the miserable post. But thank you for listening, yet again to my ramblings.

Still sending so much love and positivity to everyone yet to test or going through their cycle or about to start

Xxx💕xxx

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I am so sorry . I really thought it would be good news . I know how heartbreaking it is. Please don’t give up xxxxxxxxx

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Thank you so much honey. I’m feeling a lot better this evening, and know I have my frozen embies to now fall back on xx

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I’m so sorry to read this, BFN are so cruel. I think scream if you need, cry, shout let yourself go through the emotions and in time you will re build your strength xx

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Thank you so much. I’m starting to feel better now - I think, because I knew in my gut that it hadn’t been successful, it now feels less of a blow. I will get there, it just again wasn’t my time xx

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Oh love, I’m so sorry. Sending you a big hug. I hope you can take some time to be whatever you need to be today. You’ll be in my thoughts. Xx

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Thank you so much honey. I’m taking my time to heal and then will be ready for the next part of our journey xx

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Thinking of you. I got a bfn yesterday and I ditto everything you said. Apart from the dh as I'm doing this on my own.

I've woken with such a bad headache this morning from all the crying yesterday. And what's worse is I have to carry on with all the drugs and retest on Saturday. The clinics instructions to make sure. I've known for days it hasn't worked like you. Now it's just prolonging the agony.

Take care x

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I’m so sorry for your bfn too honey.

My clinic don’t tell me to wait a few days. They just take the test today as it is what it is. So I’m really sorry you’re having to wait for another few days to do another test.

Look after yourself - I’m always open for a chat of you need someone to listen xx

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I am so sorry to hear this news 😥 in time you will heal and get strong again sending love, hugs and hope roll on the new year xxx

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Thank you sweetie. We will get there. 2018 will be our year! Xxx

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I'm so sorry to hear this, I don't know you very well but I can tell your stronge, I know you can do this just see this year out and start again fresh for 2018 that's going to be your year. Sending you lots of hugs xxx

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Thank you so much. And thank you for the positivity. 2018 will definitely be my year, I can feel it ☺️

And huge congratulations on your bfp honey. Wishing you a wonderfully happy and healthy pregnancy xx

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Bless you, you don't deserve this at all but it sounds like you've over come a lot and only getting stronger and ready for the next fight. We all have our bad days, I certainly did yesterday couldn't stop crying, but you can do this, might not seem like it today tomorrow or even next week but you got this girl! 😊 Thank you really kind of you. Take care of yourself! I look forwards to seeing your BFP announcement next year 🤞🍀💗Xxx

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Thank you so much. Xx

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So sorry 🙁 xxx

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Thank you xx

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So sorry to hear that. I’ve been there too and it’s rubbish. Sending you a massive hug x

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Thank you. So sorry you’ve been through it too. Xx

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So sorry my dear but hang in there . This is d most difficult journey that anyone has to go through xx

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Thank you so much. I will get through this! I know I will, and I’ll come out the other side stronger and more ready for anything! Xx

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So pleased to hear you have some frozen back ups! I never got any Frosties from round one and a BFN is just devastating. I feel your pain. Allow yourself to be sad then pick yourself up xxx

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I will. I’m not going to let this beat me. Thank you so much xx

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That's d spirit gurl

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So sorry about your news. Stay strong.xx

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there simply are no words..I totally know how you are feeling and the pain is just too much..please know I am sending you so much love and hugs..take some time and allow yourself lots of tears xx

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so much love to you, at least you can enjoy your xmas and go in to the new year with a fresh positive mindset. Thinking of you xxx

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Sending lots of hugs, BFN's are horrible even if we are half expecting them we cant help but get our hopes up! Thinking of you!xx

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