Hi all. My fiance and I have been TTC for 4.5 years now, I have unexplained infertility, he has 3 kids from a previous relationship.
Over the years, I've been told conflicting things about having PCOS, sometimes it feels like i'm just a complete medical mystery!
I had my right ovary removed in April 2012 due to it being covered with a complex cysts. I was put on Clomid nearly 2 years ago which did nothing to help, so was told my only hope of conceiving was thru IVF.
I have NHS funding for 3 rounds, the 1st round we had in January this year & it was unsuccessful. I also picked up a rare pelvic infection at the time of egg collection, but didnt find out until a month later when i collapsed & was hospitalised for 5 days after having emergency surgery.
We were told that there was no reason why we couldn't have IVF again, but that more precautions would be taken this time to try to stop me catching an infection again. Knowing I'd regret not taking a chance, we recently had Round 2. I had 7 eggs collected, 4 fertilised & 1 embryo was transferred on Day 5 at blastocyst stage.
I was told it was brilliant quality & they were really confident it would work this time around.
Pregnancy test is due to be done tomorrow, but I've been bleeding for the last 5 days so I know it hasn't worked again!
I am devastated, depressed, grieving & I don't feel I am strong enough to get thru this again!
I can't face going through IVF again, all for nothing, but it breaks my heart to think I'll never be a Mummy.
I hate my body so much & I wonder what the hell I've ever done to piss Karma off so much!!