Just here for some support as I'm feeling very low. I had my 5th chemical pregnancy just over 2 weeks ago. I thought I was doing ok but over the last day or 2 I have been really down. Worse than I was straight after I lost my baby. Im going for some tests on Tuesday to find out why I keep losing them so fingers crossed they'll find something fixable. I'm scared it will be like my fertility problems and just come back as 'unexplained'. I know that life is far from fair but I'm can't help but feel like infertility is hard enough without having recurent miscarriages as well. I guess hoping for life to be fair is just another way to end up disappointed.
My boss at work just had a miscarriage and I should feel sorry for her but I'm just angry. She already has an adorable little girl and I know in a few months she'll be pregnant again and I'll have to watch her pregnancy progress whilst I'll probably still be here desperately trying to get pregnant then desperately trying to keep it. I hate myself for being angry when I know how much she is suffering but I just can't help it. I'm almost ready to give up on the whole thing and I could really use some strength to help get me back on my feet.