So as the title says I'm feeling guilty. For my previous 2 IVF's (one fresh and one frozen) I stopped drinking alcohol, fizzy juice/energy drinks and maintained a healthier diet for around 3 months before treatment. This time (3rd cycle although 2nd frozen) I've ate what I wanted and drank alcohol up until just before starting my progynova, I don't feel guilty for this because giving up early before made no difference anyway. I don't have an unhealthy diet and hardly drink anyway so it's not like I've went too crazy. This time though, I'm still drinking energy drinks. Probabaly 2-3 a week. And I feel so guilty, I 100% wouldn't touch them after transfer but I know I shouldn't even be having them now.
It's like my mood is so low this time around treatment, all I keep thinking is well look at the last 2 rounds, both chemical pregnancies, why would this time be any different? Why would it work? I can't get out this mind set!! I hate that I'm feeling like this but I can't seem to shake out of it. I keep reminding myself of all the girls on here who've had unsuccessful cycles and gone on to have success from frozen cycles but then I just feel like I have this gut feeling that the outcome will be the same as before.
Sorry for moaning, just feel like I need to give myself a good shake. I'm so disappointed with my family too, we decided to tell my dad and sister about IVF after our second failed treatment (they didn't know anything about it before). They're aware we started treatment in August and not one of them has asked a thing about it. Just wish I hadn't even told them now, we thought telling them would give us extra support but actually it's not helped us at all. All it's helped with is they will never ask us when we're going to have kids but in terms of support through IVF they don't seem to be interested. 😤😩 sorry everyone, think I'm just having one of those days! Xxx