Currently on my third cycle of ivf, first frozen cycle. I'm taking the Buserelin at the moment as well as higher dose folic acid to hopefully avoid a miscarriage this time. I'm one of these people that when I'm back on the 'process' of it all I actually feel better, less lost. Doing the injections etc helps me. But I still can't shake this negativity in me. I do trust my specialist, and he's outlined it all perfectly but I just can't shake the gut feeling that its not going to work. I've seen a counsellor a few times after the miscarriage and I'm using hypnotherapy tapes at home before bed to try and relax. Me and the husband try and get out and do things but with obviously money tight because of paying for the cycle we are limited but we do try. I just can't shake it. I feel negative about it all the time. I don't think it's going to work and if it doesn't I don't know what we're going to do as we realistically can't afford to try again. Not only that but just imagining another week or month or year, whatever of feeling like this, depressed and longing for something I can't have, I don't think I can face that. I don't even enjoy the things in life that used to make me happy anymore. My husband is very positive like I used to be and he's trying to be supportive of me in this mood but it's impossible to shake. My last 2 cycles I felt this every now and then, but I'd have like bouts of positivity or even nearly 'normal' in between. This time its all just doom and gloom :S
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