Negative Thoughts

[HelenJudi1]

Hello ladies...

I had my first frozen embryo transfer on Thursday. I’m trying to think positive and I know it has only been two days but after so many failed IUIs I can’t help but feel sometimes that it just won’t work for us. I was fine the last two days and then today I noticed white discharge in my undies when I went to the bathroom (apologies for the overshare) and now I just feel like my period will come as scheduled (it’s due on Thursday, so only a few days away) and it’ll all be over again. It’s normal for me to get this a few days before my period so I already feel out... I just want to go to bed and sleep and maybe shake this feeling but we have family staying and they are so excited at the thought of a little one it’s all everyone can talk about. As much as I appreciate their support and love their excitement it feels it’s all for nothing tonight...

does any of this make sense or do I just sound silly?

[MissSaoPaulo]

Sweetheart, it's soooooo normal to go through those feelings during the 2ww, it really messes with your head. The extra pressure from others' expectations can't help. I hope the rest of it passes quickly and ends in a lovely BFP for you xxx

[HelenJudi1 in reply to MissSaoPaulo]

Thank you xxx

[FrancyItaly]

I hope you get a positive test next week! Keep us updated!

[HelenJudi1 in reply to FrancyItaly]

Thank you... I will x

[Tracey4668]

You do not sound silly. High (and low) emotions are completely normal. Your feelings are valid. Nobody can help how they feel.

The 2ww is such a long wait and you can't help but tune in to every little body change. You end up overanalysing everything but I think it's because were so hopeful that it'll finally be our turn.

It's such a hard journey, it will get you down some days but it can only make us stronger and more resilient in the future.

Keep positive. Try and use the fact that you have guests staying as a way to district yourself. Keep yourself busy and try and talk about something other than ivf/babies. Good luck hope you have your BFPx

[HelenJudi1 in reply to Tracey4668]

Thank you! It does make me feel better to know I’m not the only one. The logical part of me is telling me that what will be will be and overanalysing things won’t help but then my emotions run away with me and it all feels overwhelming...

I’m back at work today so hopefully that will distract me enough to get through the next few days... thank you for your comment x

[Tryagain45]

Hi there. The 2WW is possibly the hardest part of anything we have to do on this journey. It's completely normal to feel like you do. It's totally normal to overanalyse every single feeling and bodily function! It's impossible to stay rationale!! I've literally turned into a crazy person on my 2WW!!! I know it's hard but try to stay positive and excited....you're not out until the stick or blood test says so. And from my own experience and from what I read you can't trust how you feel and bodily stuff because of the meds and the stress.

So while I know it's hard, try and relax and enjoy....what will be will be xx

[HelenJudi1 in reply to Tryagain45]

Thank you... I am trying today to stay more positive and I’ll try not to overanalyse. I know you’re right about being out and that you don’t know until you know... it’s just such a wave of emotions! xx

[Tryagain45 in reply to HelenJudi1]

I know....it's really really hard to be positive all the time. I think that sometimes we think that if we think negative and think that it hasn't worked that we make it easier if it actually doesn't work. And if we are all positive and then it doesn't work that we will take it worse. But I think if it doesn't work then it's still really shit no matter how we felt beforehand ....sooooooo....May aswell think good stuff!!! I try and tell myself this for every transfer!! I hope you get through the next few days and feel ok....fingers crossed!!!! X

[HelenJudi1 in reply to Tryagain45]

You are right! I know you are... I think our minds try to protect us so I can’t help but feel it won’t work because all our previous 2WW’s have ended in disappointment ... I have a cold and feel a little under the weather too so that probably isn’t helping my mood... thanks for your support and encouraging words! I appreciate it x

[Lemona]

I know what are you feeling... I’m currently on tablet hormones going for a scan to check my thickness on Sunday 27th to see if I’m ready for my frozen embryo. Failed the first IVF in February and I was stressing so much about it. Did not want to see anyone as I was dreading the question “are you alright “? Told all my family not to ask me this question ever until I’m ready to talk about it.

This time I’m trying not to overthink it, it’s hard as we are pumped with these horrible hormones so we can’t really help it.

Stay positive, if it’s ment to be it will be. 🍀

Sending all my positive vibes to you 🌸

[HelenJudi1 in reply to Lemona]

That is the question isn’t it... are you alright? How do you answer that? It’s hard as we are the only ones now in the family that don’t have children... and I know they are trying to be understanding but they can’t relate. I can’t even blame hormones as I’m on a natural cycle but I can’t stop myself from overthinking everything...

Thank you for the positive vibes, I appreciate it... Good luck with your scan! I hope it goes your way xx

[Refocus]

Snap, I had my first frozen ET on Thursday too and already feel convinced that its not worked! I felt absolutely nothing during the 2WW of my fresh transfer and this is the same. We must try and stay positive and busy though so that we don't have the most miserable two weeks! And at the end of the day, we really have no idea and we won't find the answer on Google either unfortunately. In summary, your feelings and emotions are totally normal! Xxx

[HelenJudi1 in reply to Refocus]

Thank you... I do feel better knowing I’m not alone!

that’s what is worrying me... the feeling nothing! Now I know that doesn’t mean anything but I can’t help but feel like it does. I think I’m dreading next week as I’m due to start my period on Thursday... I thought of not even getting to rest date (the Monday) for some reason really bothers me! I am trying to think more positive though and I’m filling my days (around work) with enjoyable activities... getting my haircut, shopping dates etc ... I wish you luck!! xxx

[Bungleboo]

Hey, all totally normal feelings! Going back to work helped me, as did the mindful IVF app (highly recommended). Good luck!! X

[HelenJudi1 in reply to Bungleboo]

Thank you x