This is our first IVF and it has been so positive so far with 17 follicles of which 13 fertilised. On day 3 we were told 2 were good, 2 average and 9 were irregular/fragmented - warning bells started to sound then but I tried to remain positive as they wanted to go to day 5. Yesterday 2 got to blastocyst stage (0-1 and 2-3 grade I believe, I need to check) so because we had none to freeze they suggested putting both in which we went for. They assured me that pregnancies can still occur from these grades but I just feel so overwhelmingly sad and disappointed and can't get out of it. We have 1 fresh cycle and 2 fets on the NHS so this is literally our only shot. I have all my eggs in one basket.
We had 'unexplained infertility' but now I feel it's due to my poor egg quality (husbands sample was and has been good) so I feel it's my fault but I know I have done everything I can to give this cycle my best shot
. I know I should be feeling grateful we have 2 in there but I just can't shake off this feeling that it won't work. I've been in tears all night and don't know what to do. I'm sorry if this sounds negative but I don't know who else to tell that 'gets it'. Any pearls of wisdom or words to shake me out of this would be very gratefully received.