Pre warning... this is a moan and a rant, one emotional warrior- so I do apologise ladies 🙈 I don't know who else to turn to because I don't really want people to think bad or judge us ☹️
We are in the middle of our injections, as much as we are excited, everything is starting to tell on us with the journey... we are both very stressed and emotions are running high.
Tonight my partner was meant to finish half day, usual Friday routine, but said he was going out for a pint with the boys from work on his way back but would be home for a curry night and a nice cuddle by 4:30... no problem! Or atleast I thought, a pint has now turned into a night out and not sure when or it he's coming home. He's said he needs time to relax with the boys, and he's had a hard week..... well I bloody have too!? I'm feeling lost and scared in all this and had a shitty week too!? Where's my night out hey?
I get he needs time out, but really.... like this! On a night planned for us to have special time? When all this is going on?
I've now lost my cool with him and caused an argument which I didn't want or need for that matter, but neither do I feel I should be backing down as I feel really strongly about it- I need him in all this and tonight I don't feel he is by my side or understands everything.
I don't want people to think bad of him, but surely I'm not in the wrong for feeling mad and upset? I don't know what to do with myself, we love each other more than anything but beginning to worry if this journey will pull us apart; I've read about it so many times and it frightens me!
I'm sorry if this isn't appropriate for this site, I don't mean to bring negativity... I just feel a little lost in all this, not just tonight.