Feeling down and tearful

[Winniebear1]

This is my first round of IVF and I am already struggling with emotions, anxiety and mood swings.

I started the journey with a mock cycle which went well with my lining thickening to 7mm with oral medications but they also found 3 polyps and 1 fibroid.

The fibroid wasn’t a problem due to its location but the polyps had to be removed and the proper cycle deferred.

Both have been removed and I am now waiting for the histology results. My clinic has confirmed I can’t start my cycle until they get these.

The thing is my emotions are all over the place, I wake up thinking IVF, I cry at the slightest thing both at home and work and I am really down about everything.

Is this normal or am I loosing it?

I think I just need a bit of reassurance.

Thank you

[Rainbowretrieval]

All of these feelings are totally normal to be experiencing. It’s an overwhelming process at the best of times, but when it throws curveballs you weren’t expecting it feels like the weight of the world on your shoulders. One thing I would say is your clinic sounds very thorough in their approach to try and get you to the best outcome when you do a transfer so try to take comfort in that they are covering a lot of bases to give you a great shot at success x

[Winniebear1 in reply to Rainbowretrieval]

Thank you. The clinic nurses have been brilliant, patient and supportive.

[Rainbowretrieval in reply to Winniebear1]

That’s half the battle won… good luck with everything x

[Eggfreezer2015]

I’m definitely there with you, with the emotions and crying at the slightest thing. It’s a combination of the drugs and also the stress and energy that it takes to go through this journey. I often think they should be handing out medals to all of us who go through IVF given what we go through. So based on that I’m going to say all your emotions and feelings are normal and you’re not losing it, otherwise that would make us (and probably a lot of the women on this forum) crazy!

[Tir-26]

your not losing it, it’s very overwhelming and all-consuming but your clinic is looking after your best interests, to get and stay pregnant. It may not seem like it now but the time will pass quickly and your treatment will back on track, all the very best with your journey x

[Annbiel]

Hi.. it is overwhelming and scary at first. I'll never forget the first conversation with the doctor suggesting it's time to move on to IVF. I couldn't believe it was happening 'to me'. You need to be believe in your heart that you are strong enough to do this - because you are 🙂. If you ever feel lonely or down just pop in on the forum and share, this community is truly amazing.

[Winniebear1]

thank you everyone for your kind words of support. They have reassured me that these feelings are ‘normal’, whatever normal is in this roller coaster ride that is IVF.

[Tour_girl in reply to Winniebear1]

hello dear, it’s normal to feel overwhelmed. Most clinics offer counselling support when going through IVF. I would recommend you use the service. Best of luck.

[Georgina1980]

I can see you have loads of reassurance already from all these lovely ladies.. I just wanted to say ‘don’t fight your feelings’! I found my first round so so hard. I had such genuine fears, I was absolutely petrified and thought I would never ever be able to get through it. Four rounds in & I’ve learnt to just let my feelings flow. I understand the whole process more & I how the meds make me feel. Ask your clinic lots of questions, I hope you have someone at work you can talk to, I do & it really helps. Sending lots of good luck wishes your way.. I hope it gets easier for you too x

[Winniebear1 in reply to Georgina1980]

Thank you for your kind words.Unfortunately no one at work and just a great supportive hubbie outside of work to talk to, which does help. MY clinic nurses have been great, even though I feel I am being a pain when I keep asking questions