Are you still in there? Are you both still in there? Apparently, tomorrow I'm meant to check if either of you are still there. Like actually there.
My bff told me last week that she talked to her embie, told it to stick... and I realised that I hadn't been doing much of that over the last week. Your daddy has probably shown you more attention...little pats of my tummy and asking 'how are the Twembryos?' And just so you know... nearly every time I giggle; it's him doing that. He's very very funny. You'll love him!
Sorry I didn't talk to you. I was more concerned if I'd get pregnant with you not that you could be little people one day. I knew you were in me. But I think I just thought I was looking after you for someone else until I knew you were real. In a weird way I still can't believe you're mine.
I hope I've looked after you well enough since you came onboard. I'm sorry about that jolt I gave you when I nearly fell out of a Mosque in Cyprus. I'm sorry if I didn't drink enough water one day. I'm sorry that three times a day I swear at "how f*?!ing glamorous my life is" while pushing a pessary inside me. That pessary actually helps you sit tight. I'm sorry if I made you sad when I sobbed uncontrollably after I forgot my medication; twice. I'm not as forgetful as I may seem. And, if you have stuck around, I promise never to forget you.
I hope I've done enough to make you stay. Enough to make that home pregnancy test say 'pregnant' when I test.
I haven't eaten pineapple core. I haven't religiously stayed away from chocolate and cold drinks. I didn't stay away from heat either; bit hard to do in Cyprus.
Lots of lovely people have had their hopes and dreams shattered this last week as they share the 2ww with me. Each time I've found it a little harder to understand what I'll do if you aren't there. I hope you're there when we check tomorrow. Both of you or one of you. If you're not I know it is nothing I could have done differently, you just weren't meant to be.