A letter to my embryos

Hello embies,

Are you still in there? Are you both still in there? Apparently, tomorrow I'm meant to check if either of you are still there. Like actually there.

My bff told me last week that she talked to her embie, told it to stick... and I realised that I hadn't been doing much of that over the last week. Your daddy has probably shown you more attention...little pats of my tummy and asking 'how are the Twembryos?' And just so you know... nearly every time I giggle; it's him doing that. He's very very funny. You'll love him!

Sorry I didn't talk to you. I was more concerned if I'd get pregnant with you not that you could be little people one day. I knew you were in me. But I think I just thought I was looking after you for someone else until I knew you were real. In a weird way I still can't believe you're mine.

I hope I've looked after you well enough since you came onboard. I'm sorry about that jolt I gave you when I nearly fell out of a Mosque in Cyprus. I'm sorry if I didn't drink enough water one day. I'm sorry that three times a day I swear at "how f*?!ing glamorous my life is" while pushing a pessary inside me. That pessary actually helps you sit tight. I'm sorry if I made you sad when I sobbed uncontrollably after I forgot my medication; twice. I'm not as forgetful as I may seem. And, if you have stuck around, I promise never to forget you.

I hope I've done enough to make you stay. Enough to make that home pregnancy test say 'pregnant' when I test.

I haven't eaten pineapple core. I haven't religiously stayed away from chocolate and cold drinks. I didn't stay away from heat either; bit hard to do in Cyprus.

Lots of lovely people have had their hopes and dreams shattered this last week as they share the 2ww with me. Each time I've found it a little harder to understand what I'll do if you aren't there. I hope you're there when we check tomorrow. Both of you or one of you. If you're not I know it is nothing I could have done differently, you just weren't meant to be.

X (11dp3dt)

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  • I can't stop my tears

    It's such a beautiful letter.

    I wish all embryos could listen then no embryo will leave any mum ever specially after going through so much to get here.

    Bless u gurl

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  • Definitely emotional this morning x

  • And it's completely understandable my dear. Xx

  • Hunny in reading this on the train and there are actually tears in my eyes. Such sweet world's, I really hope it works out for you xxxxs

  • Everything crossed x

  • Everything is crossed and I'm praying πŸ™πŸ½πŸ™πŸ½πŸ™πŸ½πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜πŸ˜˜

  • Thank you x

  • 😒😒❀️

    Beautiful words. And I'm sure they hear you loud and clear and have never doubted for one second, your, their mum's, dedication to them. Exciting week ahead when you hear them answer back "yes we are here mum, and we can't wait to meet you." xxx

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  • What a lovely letter, reading it with tears in my eyes now - hope you get that pregnant sign xx

  • Me too x

  • What a beautiful and moving post. Wishing you all the luck in the world when you test. Whatever the outcome you did everything you could for your embryos xxxxxx

  • Thanks Jenny x

  • How lovely and beautiful, wishing you all the best for tomorrow xxx

  • Thank you x

  • Goodness me.... I dont even know what to say emu... other than reading this post you are absolutely already the best mummy.... I have everything crossed for positive news x

  • Now I'm crying! x

  • It's true.... I will eagerly looking out for your positive news... you greatly deserve it xxx

  • Stunning!! Heartfelt and beautiful...what a star πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€

    Thanks for writing this - it made me laugh and cry xxx

  • Nope, I'm definitely crying too now! x

  • Beautiful darling, I have everything crossed for you.xx

  • Thanks you xxxx

  • Have everything crossed for you xxx

  • Ta xx

  • How lovely and what a good idea. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you for tomorrow. That 2ww seems to have gone quickly but I am sure it has dragged for you. Try to have a restful day today. x

  • The last 72 hours have been the hardest! :/ x

  • They always are. Not long now Hun. x

  • Everything crossed for you xxx

  • Xx

  • Just beautiful!!

    Good luck for test day xxx

  • Thanks xx

  • Such a lovely heart felt letter, I really hope it works for you hunni, keeping everything crossed for you xxx

  • Thanks Emma xx

  • Everything crossed for the morning x

  • Best not keep my legs crossed! ;)

  • Fingers crossed for you! Thanks for sharing xxx

  • No worries! I like to write about my journey xx

  • I ❀️ This!!!! And I really hope this is what you'll be able to show your babies in years to come. You should write it out as a handwritten letter as well! Sending you so much luck for test day tomorrow xx

  • Definitely thinking about a blog. And will write this all down fornsure xx

  • Awww lush letter I can relate!! Xxx

  • Mwah x

  • Good luck for tomorrow πŸ€ 🀞 X

  • Thanks Tugs xx

  • That was beautiful... I hope everything works out for the twembryos! Best of luck xx

  • What a lovely letter! Have my fingers crossed for you tomorrow!xx

  • Thank you Cinderella xx

  • Beautifully written πŸ™‚

    Good luck for tomorrow! πŸ€ πŸ™ xxx

  • Fingers crossed! x

  • Crying reading this emu, so beautiful. They'd be daft not to hang around to such a lovely & funny mummy! ❀️ Xx

  • Don't make me cry any more!! Haha xx

  • Love this - so beautiful. In tears whilst reading this at work. Keep strong lovely & sending you big hugs & positive thoughts xxxxx

  • Thanks pumpkin. xxx

  • Thank you for sharing it! Not the best day to be reading this post as have already cried 6 times this morning! Bloody down regging! Xx

  • Ah well I'm pleased I tipped you over the edge! ;) x

  • I feel your pain, Im been crying loads over the last few days and Im only on day 10 of down regging! Ha ha hax

  • I'm on day 21 now....keep going! Xx

  • 😩❀️❀️good luck for test day!!✨🌈

  • Thanks Krushby x (cool name!)

  • Beautiful words emu, I have a good feeling about tomorrow xxxx

  • Hope that good feeling sticks xx

  • Oh my God, what a letter, you are the most sensitive woman I have ever met.

    you wrote great words, I remember myself, being mistaken during 2ww..

    I wish everything is going to be ok and your embryos are listen to you.

    Big luck to you dear and fingers crossed for a positive result

  • Thank you so much. I enjoy writing. I hope I'm writing to share it with a family one day xx

  • I think this deserves another poem & some firm words for the mini emus 😘...

    Right, I'm talking to you two,

    tucked up cosy in there

    You better be growing

    have you got that, you pair?!

    Your mum's done everything

    she possibly could

    So it's down to you guys

    And it better be good!

    Like us all, she deserves a break

    So cling on tight, for goodness sake!

    We're all holding on

    Fingers crossed and toes too

    Hoping the best comes to Mrs Emu!

    All the very best, thinking of you 😘 & apologies for my rubbish poems, just want to distract you from worrying for a second! Sx

  • I LOVE your poems!!! Feel ever so special to get one! Never mind 2! And now you made me cry again! x

  • Sorry I didn't mean to make you cry! Just wanted to send u a happy message. You wrote such a lovely note to your little embies and my poem was a firmer note to tell them we don't want any funny business, they've got a v important job to do! Thinking of you and so hope for a happy ending for you all. X

  • Well I'll read it to them! x

  • Love this!xx

  • You have made me cry. I have everything crossed for you and your much loved embryos xx❀

  • Sorry I made you cry! x

  • That's so sweet, ur making me cry! X

  • My goodness. I didn't expect all you ladies to cry! x

  • Crying here too! Best of luck tomorrow, I wish for you that your embies get to meet both of you. Xx

  • Getting nervous now! I mean more nervous! X

  • Awww wow that is beautiful sat in the canteen at work with tears in my eyes blinking so fast hoping to stop the tears from falling .

    I wish you all the luck in the world that you get you BFP tomorrow xx

  • thank you so much xx

  • This is so lovely to read. Brought a tear to my eye. Wishing you lots of luck xx

  • Thanks Dougy. Not long now x

  • Cheering you on!!

  • Thanks! X

  • That's beautiful I have everything crossed for you! Xxx

  • Thank you xx

  • Aww what a beautiful letter, I'm hoping for great news for you tomorrow emu. My fingers are crossed for you 😊Xx ❀

  • Thanks flossy xx

  • Oooohhhh this is sooooooo nice! ❀❀❀ and such a good idea. I'll definitely talk to mine once I finally manage to get my transfer. Thank you so much for sharing!! I talked to my eggs during stimms and before egg collection so I'll try to remember to keep it up πŸ˜πŸ‘πŸΌ

    I can't wait for your result I'm optimistic and hopefully and positive it will be a positive! πŸ™ŒπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌ

    Xxx

  • I'm literally folding my body in half trying to cross it! x

  • I will be up early tomorrow for work and checking this app waiting for your result! Haha. I get so excited for everyone when it's positive and i feel each loss. This group is so supportive just know EVERYONE is rooting for you and your Twembryos!! β€πŸ€žπŸΌπŸ™πŸΌ xx

  • I know! You really do go on everyone's journey. It's been a really hard week or so xx

  • 😒 that's so touching. I wish you so so much luck for tomorrow. Keep talking to them, it shows your inner strength and courage. Their mummies voice is so important πŸ€πŸ˜˜ xxx

  • 😘😘😘

  • Lovely words brought tears to my eyes, I hope that you get your bfp wishing you lots of luck πŸ€β­οΈπŸ€ xx

  • Thanks you xx

  • Oh my days that's so lovely god I want to cry but I can't my husbands led next to me and he'll start crying to. Aw bless xxx

  • Dont make hubby cry!! I can't go to bed thinking I made a husband cry! x

  • I'll ask my angels to speak to yours for this chance xx

  • Oh goodness. Don't make me cry! x

  • 😘😘

  • Love this, so sweet xx

  • 😘

  • So beautiful, I have everything crossed for you guys 😘 xx

  • Thanks Hannah xx

  • This is beautiful Emu. I've got everything crossed tightly for you and Mr Emu. Hopefully its your time!! xx

  • Hey you thanks xx

  • Really wishing you a safe and happy pregnancy and fingers crossed. And if your embryos have any siblings (I mean frozen ones) I hope they make it too. IVF is so clinical but once they exist they should all get a chance to join you. Thinking of you, hoping you'll be two very happy parents in 9 months time.

  • Thank you Kristina xx

  • So emotional message. I'm sure both embryos would have listened and they will definitely stick. They have to...

    All the best dear

  • Well at least one did! :) xx

  • Oh Emu what a lovely post.i cant believe im only seeing it now.im so glad they heard you and are happy inside mommy.enjoy being pregnant .congratulations again.

  • That's wonderful! Really great news - have fun now and celebrate!

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