Hope you're as well as can be. Today I have a day ahead with my best friend. She has a 10 month old baby who happened to arrive the same week that I was told something was not right and I was referred to specialist. My friend knows everything that is going on. However, when I see her, her little one is literally handed to me for the whole day, I feed her, change her, bathe her. Feels a little bit like 'while you can't have kids, here, enjoy mine'.
I know my friend means well, I think she wants to share the joy of a baby. But it's bittersweet isn't it?? I love this baby and some days I thrive in having her, but other days I just don't want to do it. Can't bring myself to say to my friend that I want to give her back, especially as I see my friend relaxing and probably enjoying the peace from motherhood for a few hours. As I say I love my friend, but I find her quite naive, she conceived on second month of trying so while she tries there's little understanding from her. There's usually quite a few fly away comments, such as 'let's try and have maternity leave together next time!' or 'I can't wait for you to get pregnant!'. You know the sort....
I guess I'm posting this today just to get me through the day, I know there's listening ears on here who really understand and just knowing that will help me be the friend I want to be today.
Hope you have a good weekend 😘😘