Tears and worry

The tears arrived this morning. When I promptly discovered I'd forgotten to take 1 (maybe 2) of my progynova yesterday.

Clearly now I think it's all over and I've ruined it. And if it doesn't work I'll blame this. I feel like the stupidest ungrateful person ever.

The clinic said to forget the missing ones and we altered my times so I'd be less forgetful. Did anyone else ever forget medication?

Missing home. I want my own bed, blanket on the sofa and my cat. I can't work out if I'm emotional because of the hormones or because I'm so upset I missed my drugs.

I really want this to work. Mr Emu is on hand dishing out hugs and amazing anecdotes of how snotty my weeping sounds.

Shout out to everyone who has done this 2ww more than once. You kick ass. x

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  • Try not to upset yourself babe. I'm glad you spoke to the clinic. It'll all be fine. One or two won't make a difference.

    I want to give you a big hug.

    If it's any consolation I had a flap yesterday counting and re-counting my progesterone pessaries as I thought I'd missed one !

    Well get through this together xx

  • You'll make me cry more! I just read your reply to my message too. :) Just trying to focus on a positive day. Don't like this two hour difference! I was 4am when in U.K. when I started panicking! x

  • It's a new day! Think how amazed you'll feel when you get your BFP in spite of this πŸ˜ƒπŸ’—

    Bloody hormones! xx

  • Big hugs β€πŸ’‹

  • Ta xx

  • My doctor always said to take my medication as soon as I remembered in case I forgot.The other night I forgot to take my folic acid and woke up around midnight to take it.If your clinic says they can work around it and change times im sure you will be ok.Also put an alarm on your phone just to remind you its medication time .Good luck with the rest of your tww.All these hormones make us forgetful .xx

  • Yep had an alarm! One for everything at that time so now I separated out! I'm a numpty. But now I have a reminder for each individual item! x

  • I remember missing a shot of my buserlin and bursting into tears at work that was last cycle. The nurses said I would be ok . I'm sure this sort of thing happens a lot. This cycle I set my alarm for every day to remind me to take each drug currently got it at 9pm for my cylogest and I keep pressing snooze til I've taken it. Don't worry yourself too much like I say I'm sure this happens all the time, but maybe try the alarm thing ? . Xx

  • I had a bloody alarm! One alarm for two things. I now have separate alarms for everything! So that's 9 alarms a day! πŸ˜‚ Xx

  • πŸ˜‚ xx

  • I don't know how many progynova you're taking but I was supposed to take 3 a day and had horrendous side effects so they told me to drop it down to 1 or 2 (whichever I could manage) and it would be fine. That cycle worked for me and so missing one or 2 honestly won't matter. Good luck! πŸ€

  • You have made me smile so much!!!!! xxx

  • Awww I'm so glad. This whole process is one big worry really, but it is worth it in the end x

  • Oh Hun I'm not in 2ww yet but leading up to it and I had to count my prognova yesterday as was convinced I'd forgotten. I've now set alarm on my phone for the various intervals! If you have iPhone u can set the times so it goes off daily.

    I'm sure 1 or 2 in the whole scheme of things won't make a difference so please try not to wind yourself up. Easier said than done I know! But uv come so far already and you want to keep your mood good so that feel good vibes are going to your little embies!!

    Can understand you are yearning for your home comforts now but remember how good that sunshine is for u! It's miserable here!

    Sending u big hugs and a big bravo for Mr Emu82 for being your rock xxxx

  • I had a bloody alarm! πŸ˜‚ Just wasn't doing the progynova part of the reminder which had cyclogest on it! Jesus wept. I'm a nutter! x

  • Right get mr Emu to put alarm on his phone to for 30 minutes after your phone as a back up just in case! We r all nutters on these meds so don't worry about that xxx

  • He has made me download an app that he can see if I've completed them or not too! Bossy xx

  • Ha ha!! Good that he is taking charge! U need looking after during these challenging times xxx

  • Don't worry! One or two in the grand scheme of you taking them every day will not matter I cannot imagine. Hang on in there!

    Re 'has anyone else forgot medication'.. ha ha ha ha ha ha. On my first or second cycle I had a complete brainstorm and got the days mixed up and thought my trigger injection was not due to the next day so missed it. I realised a few hours later and I cannot tell you how awful I felt!!!!!!!! Cue ermengcy calls to clinic/feeling so stupid and distressed etc etc etc. I truly believe in 'ivf brain' and for the important meds, enlisting alarms/DH etc! (They said I was not the first...)

    You are doing an amazing job remembering all these meds, and just one or two yesterday will not make a difference! xxx

  • My co-ordinator in UK contacted my consultant - he said it won't make a difference ... :) big smiles xx

  • hurray! glad you got reassurance from them already xxx

  • They are truely an amazing team! x

  • Honestly I don't think it will make any difference. You will still have some in your system any way. Really not worth stressing over. I know you will and I would to but babies aren't made on progynova alone! X

  • That is very true! x

  • The 2ww is not fun at all and so many ladies on here know exactly how you are feeling.

    Don't be hard on yourself. You noticed it, spoke to the clinic and have a plan of action. Try to focus on that positivity. I find setting alarms on my phone works OK.

    It is only natural to deal the way you do. Be kind yourself. Gosh we all have so many hormones floating around when we are on this journey.

    Deep breathes. A bit of meditation and done fresh air.

    Thinking of you.

    Xxc

  • I don't not envy anyone going through this! I have a new found respect! Feeling much better now xx

  • Hey you, listen honestly don't worry about this. You are only on day 5 after egg collection. Your wee on-board embies are just arriving at blastocyst today.

    That means they will only start to hatch tomorrow and then try to start implanting the start of next week.

    These tabs are also only supporting your bodies natural levels so I promise you as long as you take them religiously now the 1 or 2 you missed will not be a problem.

    Try and keep calm you can't change the missed ones and being stressed won't help.

    Lots of love honey, your fine 😘❀ xx

  • What sound advice! You're a trooper xxx

  • I totally understand your anxieties but remember you are only human. You are doing so well and actually forgetting shows you were probably relaxed at the time which has got to be a good thing. Please please don't blame yourself. You are dealing with a really intense situation and to top it off you are away from home. Give yourself a break. Think about what you would say to one of us and tell yourself the same thing. Positive thinking is incredibly powerful so tell yourself you are amazing! Just think of all the things you've done and sacrifices you've made to just be where you are. All those things make you deserving of motherhood. Big hug! xxx

  • Thank you! That does make a lot of sense! Feeling a lot calmer now! :) xx

  • Oh Em, what a worry for you. I'm so glad your clinic, consultant and the ladies in here have hopefully been able to give you the reassurance that it won't make a difference and you're feeling better about things.

    Sounds like you and MrEmu are alarmed up now so it won't happen again! I can't believe you have 9 things a day to take!!

    Sounds like you've one in a million there with your husband and really hope you can relax a little and try to enjoy your last few days in the sunshine together before heading home and back to work next week.

    Thinking of you lovely. Xx

  • Awwww thanks. He is a gem. Makes me feel less stupid. :)

    Feel a lot better for a little wander this morning and now back to the veranda with my book! xx

  • I'm sure it will be fine! If the clinic haven't gone into panic mode then you shouldn't either!! Try to get back into relaxation mode, if that's even at all possible in the 2ww....makes us all a bit mental!πŸ˜‚πŸ˜¨ Hopefully won't be going now until you're on that sofa of yours!!xx

  • 4 days! But relaxing now. Feeling a lot calmer and for now... a little less mental... x

  • Ah bless you.. Probably the icing on the cake by forgetting them and crying.. Maybe your body needed a release and a good cry can help... Like they told you no damage done... I've been on 8 progynova a day.. All spaced out so trying to remember all was hard.. Just weaning off them now. Down to 3 a day....

    When do you fly home then? What a lovely hubby you have.. Good to hear that you have good support.

    P. S have done 2ww 5 times and never gets easier.. Understand your anxiety.. Hopefully you can go out and do something nice today to keep your mind busy.. Especially if it's sunny.

    Take care xxxx

  • 8?! Omg!

    Fly home Wednesday. Went out this morning, but can't be in sun for too long. So now in the shade reading my book and lovely comments from you lovely ladies xx

  • Yes 8...i know!! Ah well enjoy lazing in the shade and your time there.. When I got home I found the wait longer than the distractions of being away... Nice weather, good food and relaxation... Perfect xx

  • Yeah I don't think I'm realising what I have. Looked up flights to go home early this morning! Clearly not doing that! x

  • No its grey here.... Try and enjoy your time... When do you test? X

  • 23 and 25 - ages away yet! x

  • They blood test dates? Good chunk of waiting be gone before you come back xx

  • Nope. Just home pregnancy tests. Don't get blood tests. Obviously won't believe what it read!ms! 🀣 X

  • Ooooo 2 date's to test.. Hope it comes quickly to you.. Take care xxx

  • Don't be too hard on yourself emu2016. I'm sure this kind of thing happens all the time xx

  • It's so hard on this journey to remember you're not the first and won't be the last! Thanks for your support xx

  • Dear Emu i see everyone has already summed up what I had to say . So just relax and enjoy d view. Everything will b just fine . Uve done done ur bit and let HIm do his bit now . πŸ™πŸ™

  • Bless you emu don't be too hard on yourself and tears along the way are perfectly normal with what your going through. You've got your med plan for next few weeks so just focus on what and your well being for now xxx

  • Mwah xx

  • I've done it about 8 times now, lost count actually. Feels like you're going mad. Hang in there, it's not over until it's over x

  • I'm so glad for this group! It just reminds me I'm not alone! x

  • Well done Emu! You're being strong. Keep going. I'm very glad MrEmu sounds so supportive. I'm starting cycle 3 on the 22nd so I'll be hoping for you on 23rd and 25th xxx

  • Good luck! There's a lot of starting cycles and various other points happening to ladies on here that week! Fingers crossed! x

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