8DP5DT and I think I'm out again :(

[galaxyEngland]

I stupidly thought this time round it wasn't getting to me, and I could accept if it didn't work as I'd been here so many times before, but today I've started getting AF type cramps and had a bit of spotting, like I have every other cycle I've had which have always failed, and for the first time I just feel like I can't cope. We did everything right, I had an endo scratch, put back a good quality blastocyst, I rested, took all my vitamins etc and still it doesn't look like it's worked. I just don't know what else I can do, if I'm doing everything I'm supposed to, and it's still not working, then will it ever work? I don't know if I can wait until Monday to find out it's not worked again, so I'm thinking of testing early, which I know isn't a good idea, I just want to be put out of my misery

[Hidden]

Hello

How bad is the spotting? At the timing you are at it could be implantation spotting?

Hopefully that is what you have xxx

[galaxyEngland in reply to Hidden]

It wasn't too much, just when I went to the loo and wiped there was a tiny bit on the tissue. But that's the way it's started the other 3 times, and I'm getting cramps, so if past experience is anything to go by that's what it means. I'd love it to be implantation spotting, but I think that would be wishful thinking x

[Hidden in reply to galaxyEngland]

Have you done an hpt? The symptoms are just so similar. There have been lots of people on here recently with concerns about this (me included) thinking it is game over and then finding out it is not the case at all.

Are you on any support hormones at the moment?

[galaxyEngland in reply to Hidden]

I'm on 3 cyclogest pessaries and 3 progynova tablets per day, which I know is supposed to keep your period at bay, but last time I got my period despite being on the meds. I've got my blood test at the hospital on Monday (they do it after 12 days normally which would have fallen on Sunday) so I'm trying to hold out doing a HPT until Sunday. That way if it's negative I'm off work and have the day to come to terms with it, rather than getting the phone call when I'm at work on Monday

[Hidden in reply to galaxyEngland]

Ok. I am also on progynova but also utrogestan. I showed a positive at 8 days. I really wish that this is all you get in terms of spotting. I had light brown spotting for about 36hrs. Some others on here have had worse and gone on to get a positive. Fingers crossed for you. Xxx

[galaxyEngland in reply to Hidden]

Thank you and congratulations xx

[Hidden in reply to galaxyEngland]

Thank you. But this is about you. So I really hope this time is your time xxx

[Missy_22]

Hi

Try not to panic yet. I know it’s hard with your history. Are you at home resting?? As I would be if I was you.

we have the same testing day on Monday but it’s ridiculous I’m not waiting that long. I’m testing Saturday morning I think. I feel so ill today as well.

Stay calm and we are all here for each other. Xxxxx

[galaxyEngland in reply to Missy_22]

No I've been to work, it's a welcome distraction to be honest. Back home now and going to put my feet up. Feeling so tired, barely slept last night, in part because my boobs are so sore that I just can't get comfortable! Would love nothing more than to have a nice soak in the bath right now, maybe with a glass of wine as well!