Down reg has begun..

[E_05]

So all day I've been feeling really nervous even started questioning whether I could put myself and hubby through this again. This time last year I was pregnant and then followed my miscarriage and 2 unsuccessful cycles I just feel so much doubt.

I'm worried I've put to much pressure on a fresh cycle bringing me my healthy baby, what if this cycle doesn't live up to last years, what if I don't get a BFP again or worse what if I miscarry again or get a BFN, I'm sure we could all go on with 'what ifs'..

But then I told myself the biggest doubt I'd ever have is what if I didn't do this cycle, what if I didn't try again so here goes the beginning of my cycle and my first down reg injection complete 💉🤞

[Jonesjp]

Good luck hunny, I've got everything crossed for you ❤️ x x

[E_05 in reply to Jonesjp]

Thank you x

[Gemz29]

The journey has officially started😊, First down reg injection for me today too. Broken sleep last night thinking about my first ever injection.... but I think it actually went ok. Didn't realise you have to do the injections at the exact same time everyday so may take some getting use to. Fingers crossed that we can do this....remember each stage is a goal & this one was the first xx

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

Oh I'm glad it, I thought I should be use to it by now but still like you had broken sleep last night but am glad to of 'got going'. Yeah it's best to do them at the same or I was told if you are running late try not to do it later than 15mins after your normal time.

Definitely we can, if you ever wana chat will be nice to have someone going through it at the same time 🙂xx

[Gemz29 in reply to E_05]

It's great to be going through this journey together, we've just got back from holiday.... it was all I could think of TBH, I read the Dare to Dream book in the first 2 days🙈🙈, how did you find the book? Xx

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

Definitely I feel stronger this cycle knowing there's people who 'get it' to take to. Did you enjoy your holiday? I thought it was really well written some bits i feel like I wrote myself, I like how honest she was especially if people read it who haven't been on this journey. What did you think of it? Xx

[Gemz29 in reply to E_05]

Ye I thought it was really good, I actually felt human after reading it..... I'm so glad I read it, it really helps understand the emotions of each stage of this journey, she was so brave to speak out. To avoid feeling too much pressure I haven't told many people so the book really helped x

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

So true and now it's amazing that she's pregnant again naturally. Yeah we're the same, have never told many people through our cycles, previously I've found it hard like not having many people to talk to but then not wanting to tell them either think that's why this forum helps so much. How are you feeling about your first cycle? X

[Gemz29 in reply to E_05]

I felt positive yesterday with the injections, I did my second injection today in the opposite leg & as I injected it began to really hurt, then straight after became raised & itchy, hope you don't mind me asking, have you experienced anything like this with buserelin injections? x

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

Of course not, feel free to ask anything you want too..I do mine in my stomach but yeah some of them do get itchy I find it normally doesn't last long but you can put an ice cube on it to help. You may already do this but once I've injected I leave the needle in a few seconds before taking it out and find that tends to help to x

[Gemz29 in reply to E_05]

No I don't but il try that one in the morning, I think it was because I had it at an awkward angle (right handed injecting into left leg) so I'm going to try my stomach too, do u tend to get any side effects from buserelin? x

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

Yeah I can imagine that would be awkward. I've always tended to get headaches and hot sweats which are mainly at night. Last cycle I really did struggle with my mood to but I don't remember that happening as much during my first 2 cycles x

[Gemz29 in reply to E_05]

Thanks for your advise I think it will really help, not sure if it's normal but I keep getting twinges/achy quite low down but I'm only on day 2 so doubt I'm getting side effects yet. I've heard the headaches can get quite bad, hopefully we don't get too many side effects. Fingers crossed, I'm already wishing the weeks away to EC. Have you got your baseline booked? X

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

No problem, like I said if you ever wana ask anything or chat feel free to inbox me 🙂 it could just be where your bodies not use to the medication, I got a few twinges on first night but I think that's more cause we're becoming so much more in tune with our bodies. Yeah the headaches do get bad unfortunately, ah I know what you mean it feels like it drags but then all of a sudden when your stimulating picks up. No I have to ring day1 of my bleed to book it in, do you? X

[NMP1026]

Wishing you loads of luck you really deserve this xx

[E_05 in reply to NMP1026]

Thank you so much Xx

[Amanda86]

Good luck 🍀 xxx

[E_05 in reply to Amanda86]

Thank you x

[lauren3189]

This is great, positive thinking Sending you all the best of luck xx

[E_05 in reply to lauren3189]

Thank you xx

[Saya85]

Aww hope this cycle goes well for you! And you're absolutely right... You would regret not doing it !

I've only been through one cycle and I already feel like giving up- the treatment isn't the issue its just the hope and expectation - and waiting again (!)

I decided to take some time

Off before my FET and have a laparoscopy done in the meantime.... And start again in the new year.

Now I feel guilty for taking a break!

Will look out for your updates - keeping everything crossed for u 🙌🏻

[E_05 in reply to Saya85]

Totally with you on that, the hope and continual need to try and stay positive is hard. Although my last FET cycle did send me a little crazy lol

I know it's hard but never feel guilty about it - I think taking time is a good thing, I've taken longer between my last FET and starting this cycle and I'm actually really glad I did now, i feel ready to go again despite the normal anxieties.

Good luck for your laparoscopy, I had one before I started any treatment and I definitely think there worth having as a good exploratory investigation xx

[Fredaflintstone]

Try to take one step at a time and keep positive as much as you can. It's so hard but you are doing all you can and as you say you won't know unless you try. It only takes one as they say. I hope you have success this time. Xxx

[E_05 in reply to Fredaflintstone]

Thank you. Thats really good advice I think often I try to look to far ahead, I do it in everything in life but need to just on focus on each part of the treatment as it comes xx

[Hannah143]

Good luck and be strong 💪 xxx

[E_05 in reply to Hannah143]

Thank you xx

[baby2016]

Sending you lot of luck for this cycle, and amoungst all the doubts and dreads, your completely right with the what ifs of not doing it. This is exactly how I felt. We're all stronger than we give ourselves credit for, so take the round by the horns and give it your all! And hopefully this time it will work for you and the following 8 months 😊Xx

[E_05 in reply to baby2016]

Thank you. So true, think you gotta be strong to take this journey on. How are things going for you? X

[baby2016 in reply to E_05]

My 3rd cycle failed this week, so now moving onto the private world and going down the DE route, felt ok about it all till today when I've had s meltdown about the fact I'll never have s baby now that is me as such, knew it would hit me at some point! Hopefully just a small blip! xx

[E_05 in reply to baby2016]

I'm so sorry that your cycle was unsuccessful but I think it's a very brave decision you've made. I can totally understand your melt down but you will be an amazing mum, wishing you lots of luck xx

[Hidden]

I've only had one failed cycle but share many of your fears. Hoping this is your cycle and all your fears are unfounded and you have that wonderful BFP and a healthy pregnancy. Xx

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you very much, I think all these fears are totally 'normal'. Hope things are going okay for you xx

[Gemz29]

They asked me to call day 1 of bleed for prior to starting injections, so I'm booked in for 7/8. Hopefully we will have our scans around the same time 😊 x

[E_05 in reply to Gemz29]

Oh that's good, yeah we most probably will. They've said my EC should be between 25-28th Aug 🤞xx