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[EmJayne91]

Hey ladies, its been a few weeks since my last post, I'm having a bad day so where better to vent my feelings than to you all. 

On the 22nd march my partner andI signed all of our paperwork to start our first round of IVF. I then went for my first injection bank holiday Monday, and have my baseline scan on 19th April, when hopefully I'll also be starting my home injections the same date. When we signed our paper we had really positive news that my partners sperm count from his latest sample was excellent and the best he had provided. So with his sperm count being good and no diagnosed problems with me, I should be feeling hopeful ... Right? I can't help today but feeling really negative from it. What ifbit doesn't work? I hear so many times that peoples first round doesn't work. Are there many of you on here who has worked first time? I can't help but feel annoyed with myself if I don't feel positive than it will never work, but I've got all these worries today. I found myself at work looking at nursery furniture, then I got annoyed with doing so..... I'm not even pregnant yet so why would I look at that kind of stuff  

Idon't think it has helped the girl I sit next to at work announced yesterday she is expecting, as pleased as I am for her, I can't help but feel like it should be my turn!! She only started trying in the new year and is now 12 weeks so she got caught very quickly!! I've been trying 4 and a half years and still going through this journey. I'm finding it hard to join in with the conversation and feel like I'm over smiling when she talks about it, I must look so fake haha!! Xx

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Hey EmJayne91

Everything you are feeling os completely natural so stop giving yourself a hard time.

Its natural to be anxious, most of the women on here feel like they will never see that positive result but fingers crossed it will come to all of us. 

I know a good few people who it has worked for first time so it definetly can happen.

Lots of positive vibes Mrs and im sure it will be your time.

Lots of luck and baby dust xx

[Tlove]

Perfectly normal way to feel and it is so difficult to hear other people's news. I was just about to start my injections when I heard someone from work was pregnant and I had this weird feeling come over me, like my heart just sank. It's a horrible feeling as you think you have to be happy for them but other people have no idea what you're going through - and what you may have been going through for years. That was my initial feeling on hearing her news so close to my treatment but life goes on around us and you have to face the day to day. Anyway, yes it can happen first time. I'm 24 weeks with twins after one round and I only had the 2 embryos after treatment. So please stay positive and look after yourself. x

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Hey

Yes it can happen first time or it may take several attempts.  Prepare for the journey don't thin negative and take each day as it comes some will Be high, some will be lows, some days will pass in a daze.

Treat yourself well above all x

[EmJayne91]

Thank you all for your lovely comments, I'm obviously just going through one of them phases. Another two girls have announced on Facebook today they are expecting, Ita so hard isn't it! I feel like just not looking at Facebook for a few weeks haha. I'm not normally like this, I guess because I'm so close now literatly in like 5 weeks time I will know if it will work or not. All seems so really, so close but so far away xx

[Tlove in reply to EmJayne91]

You know, when you're trying so hard for a baby and it's not happening, it does seem like everyone around you is getting pregnant. It's weird because you probably didn't pay so much attention before but all of a sudden, there it is - bump syndrome! Every magazine you pick up, tv programmes, all of a sudden you're really in tune with it all. And suddenly all those articles about fertility jump out at you as well. I found FB difficult too, some people tend to go overboard with their posting on there! Maybe take a break and use Twitter or Instagram for a while!

[Isa84]

Hi,

Everything you are feeling is completely natural and anyone who has been trying for a long time feels the same. I remember when a good friend of mine announced she was pregnant in a room full of my friends and I pretended I needed to run to the loo but really I went to the bathroom to cry, I just couldn't help it! 

With regards to the IVF, everyone's journey of different! It does work for some people first time but for others it takes several goes. I've no diagnosed issues and my husbands sperm is very good but I've had 3 failed cycles with 5 good graded embryos. 

It's very difficult because I really thought it would work for me first go or certainly second and if it doesn't it's a hard blow but you just have to be positive and move forward and keep trying. 

Certainly stay positive every step of the way and think good thoughts because it very well could work first go for you! However if it doesn't never give up hope, just try again and keep positive no matter what.

Wishing you lots of luck and success for your cycle, lots of baby dust x