well the 29th has arrive and i got a bfn

[kat2978]

well otd has arrived and got a bfn so gutted its unreal why cant i just get some luck

[abbie103]

Hope your okay today, I've done my test and negative although I knew it was over a long time ago as I started bleeding on day 10 and test was negative then, it's horrible the feeling it didn't work the worse thing is people asking your result I'm just hiding away today 😔 how do u feel xxxx

[kat2978 in reply to abbie103]

yeah i feel the same even tho i had a feeling it never worked but somewere i hoping maybe 1 stuck around just feels like half of me has died today and with ppl asking how it went just makes me cry never phoned the hospital coz of it but the landed up phoning me going to see dr in the new yr for a medicl reveiw wot good that will do wen this was our last cycle but i feel for u hun i no how u feel been thinking of u sorry to hear it never worked for u xxxx

[abbie103 in reply to kat2978]

My clinic havnt even bothered to ring me to ask the result I'm presuming they know it's a negative if I havnt called I need to ring and tell them tho as I also want a medical follow up to see what happened, it's horrible really is I feel same as u my process went so we'll so I was looking for a happy ending I can't even be bothered with Christmas but trying to plod along how many attempts have u had, have u bled at all this time xxxx

[kat2978 in reply to abbie103]

hey hun this was my 2nd cyle first my eggs arrested day b4 transfer no i bleed 2days after transfer and it lasted 5 days i agree wi u cant be bothered with xmas but have to plod on aswell and think about wot next step we take in the new yr xxx

[abbie103 in reply to kat2978]

I spotted on day 3 and 5 but towards the end I knew my period was just holding off, what scares me the most of this whole process is the fact I may never be a mum, it kills me inside that all these other woman who smoke drink as take drugs get something so precious yet us woman that won't dare eat a McDonald's because it's in healthy suffer, as hard as it is I won't give up, in years to come il foster or adopt and give a child who needs a loving family a good life, just unfortunate that in life we are dealt cards and it's them cards we have to deal with, I have 1 more go after this that's if I don't get to use my eggs from te first cycle I'm not sure how this stands at my clinic if the next go doesn't work 2 more shots then I need to look at other options, did u have a 5dt ? Xxxx

[Madcatlady55 in reply to abbie103]

I can understand that Abbie. After my boss lost her ivf angel at 7+2, I just can't look at women with babies at the moment. Although it was secondary infertility, she has an endocrine issue and not a good previous obstetric history. If anyone deserves happiness its her, like the rest of you lovely ladies, you are all the bravest women I am privileged to know and I wish I could wave a magic wand and make all your dreams come true.

[Madcatlady55 in reply to abbie103]

So sorry Abbie, it must be awful when you have others asking for the result, that's why they tell you to restrict who you tell about the ivf. I've been following someone on here who was due to test some time ago and hasn't posted since. There is no way I'd pm her for her result, as it's obvious it was a bfn or she'd have been on. I just sent a pm recently to tell her that I'm thinking of her.

Take time to look after yourself and do make sure you attend any appts the clinic book for you and consider counselling if you need it. A bfn is still a bereavement, even though lots of people don't see it that way.

Wishing you a peaceful and healing Christmas xx

[Flossy85]

So sorry to hear your sad news, thinking of you and sending hugs xxx

[Hidden]

Ladies

This journey can't even be explained the pain, the highs and lows and down right depressing moments and then to get a BFN doesn't even come close to an explainable feeling in words.

We all have a coping mechanisms that kicks in even when we feel we are at rock bottom...

Dig deep, be angry, cry , shout, scream, hate and when all those have gone and the pain slowly goes mostly away you still have your hubby who probably will never k ow how much it rips you apart but he was there then and here now. Lean on him let him help you up and find your feet.

It sucks to be us but then who else would we want to be.

Never give up hope I think it was Mrs Wee that said luck comes to those that never give up.... If that's true then we all will get our longer for baby.

Sorry for the long post but the red devil is due to knock so am feeling low but trying to stay on a high 😘

I wish us all well and a massive hug for you xxxx

[abbie103 in reply to Hidden]

This is what I needed, bring on the next challenge, we are stronger than we think GAME ON xxxx

[Madcatlady55 in reply to Hidden]

I would add that nothing worth having ever comes easy.

You are all fighters, I am so glad to be part of this group, even though it wasn't me going through the ivf. When my boss became the mum of an angel, my lovely hubby was there to cry with me and watch over me as I went through the early days of bereavement with her. He is still strong now and is there for me when a bad day hits.

May you all find some peace and healing this Christmas and don't give up hope for the New Year.

Baby dust to you all xx

[Hidden]

That's the way Abb😘 Beat it don't let it beat you 🙌🏽