Having an emotional day today, friend is due to give birth and girl in work was constantly talking about baby names yesterday i just wanted to walk out of office. Returned from holiday (the holiday I pictured myself pregnant on) hoping to have a letter for appointment at Micarriage Clinic. Rang the Miscarriage clinic for an update they said there is a 6 week wait at the moment for appointments and that's quite good because usually it is longer they said, but apparently it's worth the wait, they can find alsorts out. It also takes 6 weeks to get blood tests back once you finally get appointment and that's with the hope that everything is ok. So I'm looking at 12 weeks of waiting but I want to get it done just feel in limbo waiting and I wanted to start 3rd attempt in December. So my focus is to start acupuncture and get myself healthy as possible while I wait, trying to stay positive and focused but can't help feeling down and anxious I just want to get started and stop treading water.