It's taken me 30 minutes to pluck up courage to type this as I really, REALLY don't want to upset anyone or been seen to be rubbing it in. So please take this post as it is meant. Here goes. I am finally coming to the end of what can only be described as a rollercoaster of emotions since 26th October 2013 until now. To find out the reason we couldn't get pregnant was down to me was heartbreaking and the guilt I felt was gut wrenching but to then be told that to qualify for funding before I turned 40, I'd also need to lose 2.5 stone in weight, time frame from October 2013 to April 2014!! How I did it I don't know but I did with a week to spare. TICK
Then came the nasal spray that turned me from relatively normal back to having thoughts and feelings I'd only ever had before in my deepest depression. Thankfully, as soon as I began my injections this changed overnight. TICK
Then came time for egg collection and the fear of waking up and being told there where no eggs. We got 8. TICK
Then the phones calls to confirm fertilisation and we got to 5 day blastocyst transfer with 3. TICK
Then the transfer of 2 and the two week wait of terror. TICK
The day then came to test. BFP. TICK
And now as I said in the beginning, I'm coming to the end. 40+1 and being induced on Sunday. Finally we get to meet our little girl and my sons little sister.
Please, please for all you beautiful, loving, special ladies and gents out there either just starting, halfway through or struggling with heartbreaking news, don't give up. It can and does happen. We know we've been lucky catching first time and we are so thankful for that. Clinical as it seems I made every step of the process a tick box exercise and took it one step at a time, not looking to far forward made it easier to deal with.
I hope I've not waffled or spoken out of turn or upset anyone.
Love to you all xxxx