hi all
I am going to post my story on here now. I have posted before regarding questions, but I haven’t really ever told my story. I have just recently turned 40 last month. I’ve only ever been pregnant once in my life when I was 28 years old. Unfortunately, I had an abortion as it was an unplanned and unexpected pregnancy. This was with my ex husband.
Since then, I have been remarried. I am now 40! And never have seemed to fallen pregnant since. It concerns me as I feel like maybe I am too old now and it will never happen for me. I know this negative thinking is not good but sometimes you just cannot help it. Sometimes I think to myself when I was 28 and pregnant, that that was my chance and I would’ve had an 11/12 year old by now. I know I can’t beat myself up about this but it’s very hard to stay positive after a failed first transfer at the age of 40.
I have another transfer booked for July which is grade 4BB embryo. I did not feel like I was on enough progesterone for the first transfer. Therefore, now they have added Lubion injections as well.
I suffered with mental health as well and I cannot help but think that I will never fall pregnant and that I lost my chance by giving up the baby when I was 28 years old.
Please can someone shed some light and tell me if my negative thinking is wrong. It’s very hard sometimes especially when you already suffer with mental health, specifically anxiety, and depression.
I have been struggling quite bad and finding myself randomly crying. I just don’t feel complete not being a mother and I don’t know if it’s gonna happen for me which is absolutely heartbreaking for me.
Thank you in advance for any replies or even just reading my story xxx