Hello everyone, so, I'm waiting on CD2 to start our first round of ICSI. Because we're having to go private (no NHS here) it feels like everything is happening very, very fast. I realise how incredibly annoying that sounds to everyone who has been waiting a criminally long time for NHS treatment and I really don't want to encourage negativity- I'm just feeling a bit overwhelmed by this new reality we've suddenly found ourselves in and the speed at which we're progressing. It feels like from frustratingly plodding along, getting nowhere and enviously watching everyone else sailing by on their journeys to parenthood, we're suddenly strapped into a rocketship and about to take off into the 'unknown' at a million miles an hour. I understand all about the science, long protocol, down regs, FSH, HCG, egg collection, blastocyst, transfer etc - but I think the reality has suddenly hit me like a ton of bricks. i've had infertility counselling and have lots of good coping mechanisms, I'm just struggling with the, anger (?), that this is our reality now. Am I being totally selfish because I'm lucky enough to have this treatment available to me when thousands don't and would kill to be where I am? Or am I grieving for the 'easy' journey to parenthood that is now closed to me? Is anyone else starting their treatment in May too?