Our 4th transfer has ended in another BFN...
We've decided to adopt!🤞🤞
Adoption is something we have talked about since we first started having trouble TTC. We said if we were lucky enough to have one child from this fertility treatment we would try to adopt a second. We also tried to pursue adoption before but we're told in this country you have to choose between adoption or fertiliity treatment, they can not run alongside each other.
And so now we've made the decision. I don't want people to view this as us running out of options and this being a back up plan. That is not how it is. Infact we still haven't used our free NHS cycle and my parents also graciously offered to fund any future private treatment we wanted. So the option of fertility treatments was very much still there for us.
Adoption feels right for us at this time. I want to pursue motherhood and right now adoption feels like the right way for us to do that.
I can honestly say it's like a weight has been lifted since we agreed to go down the adoption route. Of course I have swells of sadness.. I am letting go of a lot by ending our fertiliity treatment journey and I'm sure it will take some time to fully process those losses.
However my heart feels full to bursting when I think about what I could gain through adoption. I thought this decision would take more out of me, I thought I'd be consumed with sadness for a long time.. Like how I normally am after a failed cycle.
Turns out more often than not.. This time around.. I am consumed with excitement and love ❤️
That being said I will continue to root for every single person on here no matter how they decide to pursue parenthood 💕