Finding it very hard to get some energy for my consultant appointment on Thursday. Having had 2 lots of surgery already and one failed IVF I am expecting to be told I need another op to remove my tubes.
I know that if tubes are damaged enough to be jeopardizing IVF they need to come out, I don't need to be told this or reassured that it is giving me the best chance etc etc. Even if its the right thing to do, it still means another operation and another few months before we can try a FET - by which time I will be 40.
I have been in this process for years. I have had enough. I never wanted to be an older mother. I never thought I would reach my 40th birthday without having children. I just never wanted this life.