Feeling really down

[pinkfairydust10]

Hey, just felt a bit alone so thought I would write my thoughts here. Partner and I have been ttc baby number 2. Felt light headed on wed so took a pregnancy test which was positive. Couple of days later line has faded and I ended up in a and e early hours of this morning with an endo flare. Given painkillers, told am not pregnant, hcg levels very low. I am now am home just lying here feeling down and exhausted mentally and physically. Feel like I have no help and nowhere to turn. Feel bad on partner who has to hold down the fort while I just lie here every 2 weeks/month of a weekend feeling poorly.

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Bless you lovely, I'm so sorry for what your going through its so hard. I know how your feeling I've been there and still have days when i can't do much but be in bed and feel bad towards hubby that does everything. Just rest up my love and take care of yourself and talk to your partner about how your feeling too. Its really easy to just shut off from each other at times. Sending you a hug. 😘💗

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you for taking the time to write to me. Xxxxxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to pinkfairydust10]

Have you had your tubes checked? When they did your lap or any other time? X

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

When I conceived my first child it was after a lap, lap was clear that time. They flushed my tubes and I conceived a little time later. Gynae appointment been cancelled for about a year so have had to go private for a consultation and pay for a Mri. Mri showed no endo but querying adenomyosis with the thickness of my uterus. Been given option of menopause injections, laparoscopy or uterine artery embolization none of which helps with pregnancy except lap. So I am hoping that my gynae appointment in nov isn’t cancelled and I am going to be asked to be put on the waiting list for a lap. Not sure how long the wait will be. I get horrific ovulation pains every month and now this pain

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to pinkfairydust10]

OK how did you give birth was it natural or c section? Hopefully theyll get you on for a lap it sounds like that'll be your best option for conceiving again. I did get really bad intense excrutiating ovulation pain after i stopped breastfeeding my daughter my tubes were really slow. I figured it was due to c section coz they found the endo in my abdomen. Managed to clear my tubes using serrapeptase lucky coz they told me to go for if or I'd have ectopic.

I hope your appointment doesn't get canceled or ask for a phone appointment if they try to cancel. Wish you all the best lovely 😘💗

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you so much for your advice. I had a vaginal delivery but suffered a pph so ended up in theatre anyway.

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to pinkfairydust10]

Could be adhesions what's causing your ovulation pain hun. I used to get it where i couldn't sit stand straight it was horrendous nothing would touch it I'd cry my eyes out curled in a ball. Good luck hun i hope you manage to conceive soon x

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Thank you so much xxx

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

Sending love abs hugs to you and thank you so much for replying means a lot and makes me feel less alone xxx

[AllWeNeedIsluv in reply to pinkfairydust10]

No problem lovely. Here whenever you want to chat 💗😘

[Honey_bun]

I'm sorry your feeling down and what you have been through.

I'm really poorly at the minute and in bed most of the time, I have alot of guilt as my hubby is doing everything. I cry alot about it, but he really doesn't mind as I'm sure you partner doesn't as they just want us to rest and feel well.

Have you spoken to your partner about feeling bad? They might be able to put your mind at rest then that's one less thing to worry about.

Sending lots of love

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to Honey_bun]

Thank you for taking the time to reply. I am so sorry to hear how poorly you are feeling at the moment.

I have spoken to him, he says he is fine but I can really see him suffering. He is exhausted and needs sleep. Ergh xxxx

[Honey_bun in reply to pinkfairydust10]

It's such a difficult time and not easy to call on outside help from family / friends due to covid.

Just keep talking.

Maybe have a lazy day together. Sometimes we just lay and watch films all day.

Take care of yourself 💕

[CTDUK]

Sorry you’re feeling this way. I think a lot of people here can relate to what you’re going through. It really does help to talk.

I was similar in that I had my first baby 5 years ago with no problems and I was completely unaware that I had endo at that point but after that I had 3 miscarriages and then struggled to conceive at all.

I was diagnosed with endo last year (after going to an endo specialist privately) who said the only true diagnosis would be laparoscopic investigation. After the procedure he told me that I had a lot of endometriosis growing and it was mainly around my bowels and rectum. In feb 2020 he did laparoscopic excision and by June I was pregnant (I’m now almost 20 weeks).

The consultant said there was no endo on my ovaries or tubes and couldn’t see any on my uterus so all bowel but it still caused the infertility in me for over 3yrs (and probably caused the 3 miscarriages also).

Before we got pregnant also I was taking daily aspirin (small dose just for a month) as I’d read that it can just take the edge off the inflammation which can help you conceive & I have continued to take it throughout my pregnancy due to the previous miscarriages.

Hoping some of that info might give you food for thought or maybe even a little hope.

Wishing you all the luck in the world.

[pinkfairydust10 in reply to CTDUK]

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply. Sorry of your losses and struggling to conceive. Endo is just horrible. Sending lots of love and hugs xxx