Just finished a hellishly long last 5 day working week. It started with a mental health nurse appointment where I broke down after agreeing to counselling but not anti depressants after discussing the destruction of my career, life, health, energy by endo and my fear of this high risk op.
Then worked non stop through to half past seven with no lunch amid pressure already from boss to review the 4 day arrangement and get occ health involved. Half my problem is I'm trying to cover 2 people's worth of work and naturally doing it badly. I sent an email yesterday to highlight some achievements but no appreciation, all I got was a request to up the momentum. Beyond demoralised. Last night my hubby was so tired he dinged the car, he never has things like that happen but he is doing 3 people's worth of work and still caring for me.
Completely and utterly beyond hope and emotionally exhausted.