Hello Ladies... so I have returned to this site as again I am playing the waiting game and its hitting me pretty hard. I was diagnosed with Endro 2 years ago after many years of gyny problems. On failed cyst removal, one failed hysterectomy then back on the waiting list to start all over again from scratch following a move to a different area after the breakdown of my marriage. Feel like I am loosing control here and hitting a very dark time in my life. I was due to have my pre op appointment tomorrow and received a call today stating that it had been cancelled due to another patient of more urgency needing it.
I feel so completely out of control and am incredibly depressed.... so i thought by maybe reaching out I could possibly feel a little better. So very much has happened in this past year, everyday I get up and fight the good fight. Just keep going I tell myself, just stay strong.
I know so many women go through this and worse but today was the first time in a long time I actually thought to myself, how nice it would be to just fall asleep and not wake up. Ever op I've had has been unsuccessful, every intrusive examination traumatising, I just want it to stop.
Sorry ladies its a bit of a heavy one, just needed to get whats in my head out xx