Hello everyone, wanted to write this post as I know many of you will understand what I'm going through. As much as I have loved ones to share my troubles with they don't understand or suffer the constant pain and feel how it drags a person down.
Went for my first appointment at the pain management clinic last week and I'm getting some of my muscles injected with anesthetic to help the pain become more manageable and to aid me with starting some physiotherapy. My doctor told me that suffering with the pain everyday means my body is working overtime, making me very tired, and due to the scar tissue from previous endo this will probably make it more difficult to conceive.
Aswell as this low blow and the anxiety of awaiting my appointment for treatment, I am devastated by the fact me and my fiancee have been trying for a baby and my body is possibly the reason we are struggling. It's also the time in the people who are close to me lives were they are finding themselves pregnant and it's awful that I feel bitterness towards them because I'm struggling.
We are both taking Pregnacare before conception vitamins but my constant fatigue makes it difficult for me to do much after my 3 jobs and then housework, and he mentions that I'm always tired. I cope with the pain and he doesn't realise how often I'm in pain and not showing it and I'm becoming mentally drained aswell as physically.
Just needed to let everything off my chest!