After deciding I'm not well enough to go to the Stone Roses concert with my boyfriend. The second plan is to go to Lytham festival with him and his friend in August, to see Noel Gallagher.
It took a lot of mulling over, and I finally came to the decision that I will go. But once I agreed to go, I didn't feel any relief or excitement. I just feel a bit wary and scared. Wondering if I made the right decision. I understand it will be tough standing for a long time with lots of people around me. But my anxiety seems to be getting in the way a lot recently, so I want to try and push myself out of my comfort zone. I have the reassurance that my boyfriend will look after me, and if it's all too much my dad is only 10 minutes drive away, so he will come and pick me up. But my instincts tell me to play it safe, and I'm trying my best to just go with the flow for once, but I'm doing it with great difficulty.
To anyone else, going to a concert wouldn't be such a big decision, but as always, I feel torn and end up fighting against myself. Mainly because of the anxiety and depression. And also because of the possible endo pains. I have said I will go, but keep doubting myself.
Has anyone else experienced a similar dilemma based on their illnesses? I would appreciate any advice. Thanks