Basically I am really confused about what to do. I had a miscarriage in January 2015 at 10.5 weeks and was gutted. I have been told (since the age of 15) that having a baby would be the solution to my problems (the symptoms would either reduce/ go completely. or I could have a hysterectomy). I have had endo for years. I am only 21 but I know I want children, so why wait and be in pain???
I have spoken to my boyfriend and he wants to get our recently bought house up together first (it is liveable now but he wants to make it better). So we decided 3 years time would be a good time to have children . However I am just existing not living. i feel cr@p all the time and my periods are just horrific.
We rarely have sex (every 3 months or so).
I have come off the pill without him knowing last week (we havent had sex in months). And I feel so guilty. I feel bad as I want it to be a joint decision but he really isnt supportive in this. We are stable financially and in our relationship. He has known since the beginning about my issues. Yet he wants to wait til he is ready which I know that he will never admit he is ready (but who is truly ever ready for babies?)
Basically I want to know if there is anyone out there who has been in a similar situation and what they did.
Please dont judge, I feel guilty enough as it is but I dont know what else to do