I have been waiting for help, and considering what I will do should my remaining ovary be removed. I have made it clear I would like to keep it if it's healthy, as there's no history of ovarian cancer in my family, and at the age of 40 I'm not keen to take the gamble of hormone replacement for 10+ years.
I don't know if I'm misguided, however. I'm coming face to face with the lack of post-reproduction education we teach our children. I had all kinds of education about how to be a reproductive woman (or how to prevent being reproductive) but menopause is a huge hole in my understanding.
Today, on BBC news just now, they reported that Angelina Jolie has undergone surgery to have her ovaries removed as a preventative measure against cancer, and that story brought the "to HRT, or not to HRT, and for how long" question. She's 39, and I'm sure she's undergoing some kind of replacement and I know she's trying to raise awareness. I wish I could ask her to speak up about what menopause means, what it looks like, what it does to your body.
I'm afraid, if I part ways with my surviving ovary, I'll lose my sex drive, I'll lose my energetic drive to be as active as I've been before being brought down by this latest wave of endo symptoms. I'm afraid my body will change and it will be harder to keep fit, I worry my clothes won't fit. But I know nothing.
Conversely, im worried about what HRT "for the rest of my life" (as one gyne put it so delicately, and I'm assuming she meant until my 50's or somewhere near the rest of my expected reproductive life...) can do to me in terms of creating other problems.
I'm a little astounded that I understand so little about menopause, and can't find much good information to equip myself with when gynecologists so freely suggest Zolodex and total hysterectomies, and HRT.
Anyway, just my rambling thoughts for the morning while I sit through another day waiting for help.
Love to you all xx