Hi ladies, I'm just venting really, im feeling very low at the minute, and very bored, I no I need to pick my socks up just finding it difficult to cope, I'm normally a busy person that doesn't rest well, I have 3 sons and after having them didn't go back to work full time, but since they have been in school, always had little jobs on the go, shop work cafes cleaning, dinner ladie ect, now I do nothing, had to give my cleaning up, because I find my own house work hard enough, and just lost my job in the school due to time off, although some days/weeks I was finding that hard, I'm scared to do things on good days in fear of it making my pain come back, or get worse, even walking the dog is scary, how perfetic is that,
I was thinking of doing a online sage accountancy course, but the thought of failure is just to much,
My husband and boys are all very supportive of me, but I feel like I'm letting them down, they have had go carting tickets since Xmas and I'm worried about booking coz I'll have to drive about an hour away and might not feel upto it,
Everything I do or don't do I'm thinking of this," what ever this it" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Still waiting for my lap to confirm diagonis,