I was diagnosed with endometriosis about 6 years ago. It is quite severe, I have struggled with coming to terms with condition. It has had a profound affect on my ability to conceive and this has made me, I don't like to say depressed but most definitely low. Recently, I have found the horrible symptoms of the condition have got worse. My periods are unbearable, I find it hard to leave the house because they are so heavy. This does not help my mood, the pain has become almost all month round. Back aches, sore knees and ankles but more so the urine infections. I told no one really about how bad it had gotten and rather than tackle the problem, I buried my head in the sand. In the last couple of months I have found myself being beaten by it, I finally mustered up the courage to tell my Mum my worries and my pain. The weight that was lifted off my shoulders is unbelievable. She convinced me to talk to my boyfriend of four years about how I was feeling. We had been struggling because I had become so subdued and down and he was unable to ever make me happy and had no idea why. When he found out he was devastated I had allowed myself to get to this point. This is a huge step for me and I still find myself feeling somewhat lost and hopeless. Do any other people feel this way? I have never reached out for support before feeling slightly embarrassed and ashamed. Stupid right? I have always prided myself on my strength and my F U attitude to anything that holds me back but I feel I may have met my match. I don't want to feel like I have been defeated anymore. Maybe knowing other people feel this way will put me at ease... Or finding out I am definitely struggling with coming to terms with it more than most will give me the kick up the bum to seek some real help. Im a strong 24 year old woman that just feels a bit alone.
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