My sister is having a baby and last night announced it online with the scan photo. I feel horrible because all I feel is jealousy. She already has one child now she gets to have another? Its made me so annoyed to see all my family, especially my mum, congratulate her and say how excited they are for the baby to arrive in April. I feel so frustrated because in April while shes giving birth i'll just be finishing zoladex injections! I feel like I can't tell anyone how upset i'm feeling because no one understands just how much of a stab in the stomach this feels like. I'm not that close to my sister either which doesn't help the situation, but I want to love this baby because it's going to be my neice or nephew, but right now all I feel is anger, jealousy and frustration about it.
Sorry this isn't really a question, just a need to vent!
If anyone else has been in a similar situation though please feel free to tell me how you dealt with it xxx