Just got off the phone with the staff nurse who read my operation notes to me as I have been unable to get remotely close to contacting my gynae.
She read me my notes, stating that everything is completley normal, no endo, no adhesions and nothing out of place. I literally began crying as soon as I got off the phone as I have no clue what this is now.
I had all the signs pointing to endo but now I feel like I'm back to square one with wondering why I was having such random and long bouts of bleeding and pain every single day as well as other stuff.
I literally feel broken right now but my parents say I should be happy that the doctor couldn't find endo so that I don't have to deal with that for the rest of my life. My parents now just think it's a mental health issue and that I've been making myself ill for years with ununtreated anxiety but I feel like that would be different and wouldn't cause the same symptoms.
This is probably just a rant now but I just feel so low at not knowing why I've been in pain and having a bad time without any reason behind it.
This crying has made my stitches hurt. I feel like an idiot for pushing them to do a lap and then they find nothing. I feel like my gynae will feel I've wasted his time.