Yesterday, I completed 12 weeks of running, which is pretty exciting regardless, it just seems like a substantial time to keep at something. My 3-month anniversary. (Is that the paper anniversary, or the leather? No, it must be the spandex anniversary.)
It feels good, but another circumstance felt even better.
3 days ago, I finally ran over 5K for the first time. (Yippee!)
2 days ago, I participated in my first outdoor rock climb. (And I had not climbed at all for many years because my mass/strength ratio was far to high and because my joints couldn't take it.) I climbed a freakin' MOUNTAIN. And it was hard, really hard for me, but I did it. A year ago, the hike to the bottom of the face would have probably broken me, never mind hauling myself up a sheer cliff face. It was so much fun.
Then yesterday, in spite of some serious complaints from various body parts, I did my full strength training routine and then ran another 30 minute run. I think I might be as proud of that as all the rest - yeah, it hurt, but I am so happy with my determination to keep up my running and not backslide into indolence. The muscle soreness just made me feel like I earned my health that much more. I don't curl up and whine anymore. I go for a run!
It was a revelation. I am not the crippled gimp that both J and I are accustomed to me being. (He still was worried about me being able to do the hike, and walking on stairs.) And I still worry too - but it is time for a paradigm shift. I am able. Full stop. No canes, no frequent rest breaks, I too can carry the pack. I am able.
9 months ago, I was having a really bad time. I asked myself what I really wanted, that would be in my own control.
"I want to participate fully in my own life."
I have been getting rewards for that decision for several months now, but at -50 pounds and plus 1 million percent strength and stamina, I think I can really say I am at the point of being able to do any "normal" thing I want to. Do I want to dance? Ride a bike? Help someone move? Go surfing or skiing? I bet I can now do all those things, and many more. Not to mention, I can RUN!