Just completed week 9 run 2 and couldn't stop crying at the end of it. This will sound stupid but I have experienced a lot of loss in my life so when Sarah Millican said she was proud of me and that she was teary eyed, I just lost it. It sounds completely ridiculous but I think I am sort of "grieving" the loss of the programme. As a widow with 3 children who works full time to keep us afloat, this has been the first thing that I have done for myself for years and years. Sarah's voice has been like having a friend in my ear. I know I sound pathetic but I am crying even now writing this! Only one more run to go.
What is wrong with me?: Just completed week... - Couch to 5K
What is wrong with me?
It doesn't sound stupid at all! My mum was widowed at age 27 with 3 children under 5 and the older I get, the more I appreciate just how amazing she was and still is!
And your kids will feel the same about you, and be so proud of you! ๐ค๐
I'm so sorry about your mum. Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate what you have said. Oops I'm crying some more xxx
I used to work in a bakery years ago and there was a manager there who was 32 and had been widowed and left with 3 kids to bring up on his own after his wife had died with cancer.
Life can be so grim at times
Thereโs absolutely nothing wrong with you! Be very proud and enjoy doing something for yourself. I understand the feeling of โgrievingโ the loss is the programme. I felt the same. I have just run my third consolidation run and have needed to set myself new goals to keep me motivated. Good luck!
I cried reading your post
I'm only on week 2 but I already know it's an emotional journey for me.
We all have reasons for doing this program and some are deeper than others.
So sorry for the losses you've had, I'm so pleased you had the strength to do this for yourself. I'm going to look forward to reading about your 3rd run.
Walk proud today โฅ๏ธ
I'm crying reading your reply!! Honestly, I'm an emotional wreck today. Thank you so much for such a thoughtful and caring message. You should be so proud of yourself for starting the programme and getting to week 2. I hope you keep enjoying it and I look forward to reading about when YOU are on week 9!! x
Thank you, this place seems to have something magical about it. I'm always so overwhelmed how strangers can show such kindness and positivity to people they are unlikely to ever meet.
It's nice to be nice is t it ๐
Not stupid in the least. I donโt know you but reading your post makes me feel proud of you too. Just fantastic! ๐๐๐ป๐๐ป
Oh bless you - it doesn't sound stupid at all. The sense of achievement alone is enough to make you teary, so I can absolutely appreciate how it taps into all sorts of other emotions too.
You are doing an amazing thing - and there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Like the others have said - be proud - not just of your running (and by the way, it's great you have found something you can do for you) but for everything you do.
I know where you're coming from. This whole programme by itself is an emotional journey and Sarah's ending is the best of all the coaches. I felt myself welling up with all sorts of feelings (but mostly relief and laughter) with what she says.
Nothing's wrong with you! It's an emotional journey. I cried when I ran for 20 mins, so god knows what I'll be like at week 9!
A good greet is very cathartic!
Absolutely nothing wrong with you, especially given the circumstances you describe Your kids have clearly got an ace Mum!
Absolutely nothing stupid about it! Iโm tearing up from not only your post but the lovely wonderful responses too. In a world full of loss and pain it is good to be reminded of the kindness of strangers too.
Your children are lucky to have such a good role model. Bottling up feeling is far more u healthy. I look forward to seeing your post after your next run. Let the rivers flow ๐ญ๐ฅฐ
Oh bless you. There is nothing at all wrong with being emotional or showing your emotions. And your experiencing a real sense of achievement which is emotional to most. You are absolutely not stupid, not even a little bit ๐
Thank you so much, what a lovely, kind message x
Hi lovely.
I don't think its crazy at all. I asked my friend, do you feel like crying at the end of a run sometimes? Sometimes is just pure feelings of pride that I managed a session and I cannot believe the ground I am breaking as I have not achieved anything like this before.
Once you finish the programme, you can always run with a coach in your ear- just keep replaying week 9, run 3. I suggested to my friend you could switch coach if you wanted to change it up a bit.
And you are not alone, we'll all be here to celebrate and support, whatever the run!!
Keep smiling and be proud ๐ค๐ค
Thank you for taking the time to write such a lovely response - I appreciate it. What a brilliant idea to change coaches on the consolidation runs - I will try that although may not be able to tear myself away from the lovely Sarah!!
Oh Jesszpix, we are proud of you. Continue posting and you are still part of the community. What you have done is huge and that sometimes is overwhelming. Well done and happy running. ๐
You really are a superhero, well done for keeping running and even getting to week 9, it is such an achievement. And yes, superheroes are allowed to cry ๐
I can totally relate to this.... the sense of loss which is why Iโm not leaving!... Iโm keeping my coach too ๐
Iโve decided to run week 9 over and over with my coach...
itโs not pathetic at all.. it makes perfect sense! And you describe a lot of loss in your life which will all be pulling on the same emotions- sending you some virtual hugs ๐ค
Iโm sure your children are amazing and what a role model they have!
Iโm not a widow but trust me when I know about your strength of character to work full time to keep you afloat!... people underestimate how difficult and exhausting that can be!
You should be super proud of yourself ๐๐ฝโโ๏ธ๐๐๐
You are doing so well... And you can almost smell graduation! ๐๐๐ฝโโ๏ธ ๐
But it doesnโt have to be an end.... itโs a start! ...
a start of you achieving new goals, about doing something for you
Itโs an amazing and magical programme which, I think, starts a whole lot of self realisation in us all
Youโre crying because you are strong! It takes a strong person to cry ๐ช
What a beautiful and thoughtful reply! Thank you so much for all your kind words. There are so many of us here doing this for deeply personal reasons. I am so proud of all of us and the sense of community here is just heart-warming. Long love our coaches - I'm just going to keep doing week 9 again too!!!
I'm sure there are other programmes that support our running post couch to 5k but I have become attached to my coach! haha!...
It's been an emotional day on the forum - I've read a few posts that have had me shedding tears today....
Our running family on here are so supportive- its a fantastic and supportive place!...
I am as chuffed to read of other peoples achievements as I am doing it myself!...
It's a very special place, that's for sure!
I'm 1 run behind you and I'm willing us on to cross that graduation finish line.. and then we will continue to run as graduates!
Ah I'm excited for you! We will be graduates together! Can't wait xx
We sure will!
Well perhaps the same week.. Iโm doing run 1 and Iโve just read youโre doing run 3 tomorrow!... you need to take a photo of you as you cross that 30 min graduation finish line!.. a moment to treasure! I know Iโm going to ๐๐๐
Canโt wait to see it ๐๐๐ฝโโ๏ธ
Itโs not stupid at all! Youโve done fantastically well to get this far and Iโm sure youโll graduate soon!๐
Itโs perfectly normal for people to feel emotional, especially if youโve had to devote all your time and energy to bringing up your children๐
Keep up the good work, enjoy your running and graduate with honours!๐ฉโ๐
Iโm in tears reading your post & all of the lovely replies...
I started daily yoga a few years ago & wondered why it made me cry ... it still makes me cry fairly regularly. It took me ages to truly believe that thereโs nothing wrong with that ... in fact now I honestly believe itโs healthy. Surely a bit of emotional housekeeping through โme timeโ can only be a positive thing?
It sounds as though life has got in the way of your โme timeโ ... maybe your tears are your bodyโs way of making up for it?
Let them flow I say.
With love ...
Your reply is so kind, thank you. I think "emotional housekeeping" is a brilliant phrase and probably sums up what is happening to me I think. It sounds like you understand so I send you love and best wishes too. I have often fancied taking up yoga so maybe that will be my next thing!!
I hope Iโm allowed to recommend this to you (I have no affiliation, other than a love affair / girl crush!) ... try โYoga With Adrieneโ. She has nearly 8 million followers on utube ... 600 free yoga videos for all levels of ability ... doesnโt wear tiny g-strings / bra tops ... is real & relatable.
She has changed my world ...
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Iโve only just seen your post and the wonderful replies - not surprisingly- from the lovely people on this forum. I can only add my support to what everyone else has said. I think you are awesome - I am in awe of you - lifeโs thrown you a horrible curveball and you are keeping your head above water- so much so that you are even finding time to do something for yourself. This isnโt selfish this is role modelling to your children that itโs ok, in fact vital, to take care of yourself and your mental wellbeing. You have been through such a lot and that โme timeโ that running gives you might well be helping you to process that. No wonder itโs an emotional process.
So Iโm wondering as I write this if you are already preparing for your final run- I canโt wait to read your post and give you a big cheer
I had Michael as my coach, I didnโt think I could survive without him and went through a similar experience of loss leading up to graduation- I kept him With me for the first week but then he annoyed me as he didnโt know Iโd graduated and kept telling me to repeat!! I dumped him ๐ and you know what, I actually felt good about it!
See you in consolidation ๐๐ผโโ๏ธ๐๐ผโโ๏ธ๐๐ผโโ๏ธ
Such a lovely response, thank you so much. Your kind words are really heartwarming and I really appreciate them. I don't feel I deserve any of this praise as I am definitely just an ordinary mum who has probably made loads of mistakes. But honestly, the encouragement and kindness from people like yourself has just lifted me so much. Big thank you. xx
PS. I have just got back from my final run