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JessPixGraduate
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Just completed week 9 run 2 and couldn't stop crying at the end of it. This will sound stupid but I have experienced a lot of loss in my life so when Sarah Millican said she was proud of me and that she was teary eyed, I just lost it. It sounds completely ridiculous but I think I am sort of "grieving" the loss of the programme. As a widow with 3 children who works full time to keep us afloat, this has been the first thing that I have done for myself for years and years. Sarah's voice has been like having a friend in my ear. I know I sound pathetic but I am crying even now writing this! Only one more run to go.

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It doesn't sound stupid at all! My mum was widowed at age 27 with 3 children under 5 and the older I get, the more I appreciate just how amazing she was and still is!

And your kids will feel the same about you, and be so proud of you! ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿ’›

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply to

I'm so sorry about your mum. Thank you for your reply, I really appreciate what you have said. Oops I'm crying some more xxx

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Sending you virtual hugs xxx

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply to

Right back at you xx

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I used to work in a bakery years ago and there was a manager there who was 32 and had been widowed and left with 3 kids to bring up on his own after his wife had died with cancer.

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Life can be so grim at times

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FrisselsGraduate

Thereโ€™s absolutely nothing wrong with you! Be very proud and enjoy doing something for yourself. I understand the feeling of โ€˜grievingโ€™ the loss is the programme. I felt the same. I have just run my third consolidation run and have needed to set myself new goals to keep me motivated. Good luck!

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toFrissels

Thank you for your reply and HUGE congratulations to you for graduating. You should be really proud of yourself. Good luck with keeping the motivation going x

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FeltipGraduate

I cried reading your post

I'm only on week 2 but I already know it's an emotional journey for me.

We all have reasons for doing this program and some are deeper than others.

So sorry for the losses you've had, I'm so pleased you had the strength to do this for yourself. I'm going to look forward to reading about your 3rd run.

Walk proud today โ™ฅ๏ธ

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toFeltip

I'm crying reading your reply!! Honestly, I'm an emotional wreck today. Thank you so much for such a thoughtful and caring message. You should be so proud of yourself for starting the programme and getting to week 2. I hope you keep enjoying it and I look forward to reading about when YOU are on week 9!! x

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FeltipGraduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

Thank you, this place seems to have something magical about it. I'm always so overwhelmed how strangers can show such kindness and positivity to people they are unlikely to ever meet.

It's nice to be nice is t it ๐Ÿ˜Š

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toFeltip

Definitely but I can tell the kindness oozes from you naturally :) Keep on running x

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FeltipGraduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

We'll all be crying at this rate ๐Ÿ˜

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toFeltip

๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ‘ Iโ€™ve flooded the forum!!

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IslandmacmumGraduate

Not stupid in the least. I donโ€™t know you but reading your post makes me feel proud of you too. Just fantastic! ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toIslandmacmum

Thank you so much, what a truly lovely thing to say xx

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Mum2NGraduate

Oh bless you - it doesn't sound stupid at all. The sense of achievement alone is enough to make you teary, so I can absolutely appreciate how it taps into all sorts of other emotions too.

You are doing an amazing thing - and there is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Like the others have said - be proud - not just of your running (and by the way, it's great you have found something you can do for you) but for everything you do.

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toMum2N

I don't know how to reply - your words are just so kind and thoughtful. Thank you so much x

I know where you're coming from. This whole programme by itself is an emotional journey and Sarah's ending is the best of all the coaches. I felt myself welling up with all sorts of feelings (but mostly relief and laughter) with what she says.

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply to

She's brilliant isn't she? I keep feeling that if I got to the end of it and she was there, she'd sit me down with a cup of tea and a choccie biscuit!!

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Fifitrixiebell73Graduate

Nothing's wrong with you! It's an emotional journey. I cried when I ran for 20 mins, so god knows what I'll be like at week 9!

A good greet is very cathartic!

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toFifitrixiebell73

I agree, it is very cathartic. My kids are so great as they just wrap me up at the end in their hugs when I (frequently) cry. I'm blaming the endorphins! Good luck with your running and keep going, you sound like you're doing great x

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CmoiGraduate

Absolutely nothing wrong with you, especially given the circumstances you describe :) Your kids have clearly got an ace Mum!

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toCmoi

Oops I'm crying again!! Thank you so much, what a lovely thing to say. I will treasure that x

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Foxyblue

Absolutely nothing stupid about it! Iโ€™m tearing up from not only your post but the lovely wonderful responses too. In a world full of loss and pain it is good to be reminded of the kindness of strangers too.

Your children are lucky to have such a good role model. Bottling up feeling is far more u healthy. I look forward to seeing your post after your next run. Let the rivers flow ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿฅฐ

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toFoxyblue

I agree, whenever I read the responses on this forum it always strikes me how they are always so kind and supportive. Thank you for such a lovely reply, I appreciate it very much. Believe me, that river will be flowing! xx

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Dtay1978Graduate

Oh bless you. There is nothing at all wrong with being emotional or showing your emotions. And your experiencing a real sense of achievement which is emotional to most. You are absolutely not stupid, not even a little bit ๐Ÿ˜Š

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toDtay1978

Thank you so much, what a lovely, kind message x

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JessPixGraduate

Thank you so much, what a lovely, kind message x

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PlattszoGraduate

Hi lovely.

I don't think its crazy at all. I asked my friend, do you feel like crying at the end of a run sometimes? Sometimes is just pure feelings of pride that I managed a session and I cannot believe the ground I am breaking as I have not achieved anything like this before.

Once you finish the programme, you can always run with a coach in your ear- just keep replaying week 9, run 3. I suggested to my friend you could switch coach if you wanted to change it up a bit.

And you are not alone, we'll all be here to celebrate and support, whatever the run!!

Keep smiling and be proud ๐Ÿค—๐Ÿค—

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toPlattszo

Thank you for taking the time to write such a lovely response - I appreciate it. What a brilliant idea to change coaches on the consolidation runs - I will try that although may not be able to tear myself away from the lovely Sarah!!

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PlattszoGraduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

Jo Whiley is lovely, she's mine. I will stick with her until graduation snd then switch, see what I have been missing!

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toPlattszo

Iโ€™ll try Jo ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿค—

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NilsamGraduate

Oh Jesszpix, we are proud of you. Continue posting and you are still part of the community. What you have done is huge and that sometimes is overwhelming. Well done and happy running. ๐Ÿ˜˜

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toNilsam

Thankyou so much, what a truly lovely thing to say :)

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NilsamGraduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

No worries. You take care. ๐Ÿ‘ฃ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ

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GreenkGraduate

You really are a superhero, well done for keeping running and even getting to week 9, it is such an achievement. And yes, superheroes are allowed to cry ๐Ÿ˜˜

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toGreenk

Thank you, it's just as well that I have a man size packet of tissues ready for my "final" run tomorrow!! I'm preparing myself emotionally. I'm definitely not a superhero but your post has really made me smile :)

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Tinytears60Graduate

I can totally relate to this.... the sense of loss which is why Iโ€™m not leaving!... Iโ€™m keeping my coach too ๐Ÿ‘

Iโ€™ve decided to run week 9 over and over with my coach...

itโ€™s not pathetic at all.. it makes perfect sense! And you describe a lot of loss in your life which will all be pulling on the same emotions- sending you some virtual hugs ๐Ÿค—

Iโ€™m sure your children are amazing and what a role model they have!

Iโ€™m not a widow but trust me when I know about your strength of character to work full time to keep you afloat!... people underestimate how difficult and exhausting that can be!

You should be super proud of yourself ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

You are doing so well... And you can almost smell graduation! ๐ŸŽ“๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ ๐Ÿ†

But it doesnโ€™t have to be an end.... itโ€™s a start! ...

a start of you achieving new goals, about doing something for you

Itโ€™s an amazing and magical programme which, I think, starts a whole lot of self realisation in us all

Youโ€™re crying because you are strong! It takes a strong person to cry ๐Ÿ’ช

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toTinytears60

What a beautiful and thoughtful reply! Thank you so much for all your kind words. There are so many of us here doing this for deeply personal reasons. I am so proud of all of us and the sense of community here is just heart-warming. Long love our coaches - I'm just going to keep doing week 9 again too!!! :D

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Tinytears60Graduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

I'm sure there are other programmes that support our running post couch to 5k but I have become attached to my coach! haha!...

It's been an emotional day on the forum - I've read a few posts that have had me shedding tears today....

Our running family on here are so supportive- its a fantastic and supportive place!...

I am as chuffed to read of other peoples achievements as I am doing it myself!...

It's a very special place, that's for sure!

I'm 1 run behind you and I'm willing us on to cross that graduation finish line.. and then we will continue to run as graduates! :-)

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toTinytears60

Ah I'm excited for you! We will be graduates together! Can't wait xx

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Tinytears60Graduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

We sure will!

Well perhaps the same week.. Iโ€™m doing run 1 and Iโ€™ve just read youโ€™re doing run 3 tomorrow!... you need to take a photo of you as you cross that 30 min graduation finish line!.. a moment to treasure! I know Iโ€™m going to ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿ‘

Canโ€™t wait to see it ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿฝโ€โ™€๏ธ

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David_G

Itโ€™s not stupid at all! Youโ€™ve done fantastically well to get this far and Iโ€™m sure youโ€™ll graduate soon!๐Ÿ‘

Itโ€™s perfectly normal for people to feel emotional, especially if youโ€™ve had to devote all your time and energy to bringing up your children๐Ÿ˜€

Keep up the good work, enjoy your running and graduate with honours!๐Ÿ‘ฉโ€๐ŸŽ“

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toDavid_G

Thank you so much. It's my final run tomorrow so I'm going to make the most of every one of those 30 minutes.

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ChokkaGraduate

Iโ€™m in tears reading your post & all of the lovely replies...

I started daily yoga a few years ago & wondered why it made me cry ... it still makes me cry fairly regularly. It took me ages to truly believe that thereโ€™s nothing wrong with that ... in fact now I honestly believe itโ€™s healthy. Surely a bit of emotional housekeeping through โ€˜me timeโ€™ can only be a positive thing?

It sounds as though life has got in the way of your โ€˜me timeโ€™ ... maybe your tears are your bodyโ€™s way of making up for it?

Let them flow I say.

With love ...

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toChokka

Your reply is so kind, thank you. I think "emotional housekeeping" is a brilliant phrase and probably sums up what is happening to me I think. It sounds like you understand so I send you love and best wishes too. I have often fancied taking up yoga so maybe that will be my next thing!!

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ChokkaGraduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

I hope Iโ€™m allowed to recommend this to you (I have no affiliation, other than a love affair / girl crush!) ... try โ€˜Yoga With Adrieneโ€™. She has nearly 8 million followers on utube ... 600 free yoga videos for all levels of ability ... doesnโ€™t wear tiny g-strings / bra tops ... is real & relatable.

She has changed my world ...

๐Ÿง˜๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป๐Ÿ’–

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toChokka

That sounds amazing, thanks so much! I will check that out, I couldn't bear a g-string yoga class :D

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SweatyHettieGraduate

Iโ€™ve only just seen your post and the wonderful replies - not surprisingly- from the lovely people on this forum. I can only add my support to what everyone else has said. I think you are awesome - I am in awe of you - lifeโ€™s thrown you a horrible curveball and you are keeping your head above water- so much so that you are even finding time to do something for yourself. This isnโ€™t selfish this is role modelling to your children that itโ€™s ok, in fact vital, to take care of yourself and your mental wellbeing. You have been through such a lot and that โ€˜me timeโ€™ that running gives you might well be helping you to process that. No wonder itโ€™s an emotional process.

So Iโ€™m wondering as I write this if you are already preparing for your final run- I canโ€™t wait to read your post and give you a big cheer

I had Michael as my coach, I didnโ€™t think I could survive without him and went through a similar experience of loss leading up to graduation- I kept him With me for the first week but then he annoyed me as he didnโ€™t know Iโ€™d graduated and kept telling me to repeat!! I dumped him ๐Ÿ˜œ and you know what, I actually felt good about it!

See you in consolidation ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

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JessPixGraduateโ€ข in reply toSweatyHettie

Such a lovely response, thank you so much. Your kind words are really heartwarming and I really appreciate them. I don't feel I deserve any of this praise as I am definitely just an ordinary mum who has probably made loads of mistakes. But honestly, the encouragement and kindness from people like yourself has just lifted me so much. Big thank you. xx

PS. I have just got back from my final run :)

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SweatyHettieGraduateโ€ข in reply toJessPix

๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿƒ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป๐Ÿ๐ŸŽ“well done I hope you are feeling very proud right now!!

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