Wk9 r2 (long post)

[TulipMagoo]

Had a demotivation moment but I’ve managed to speak myself out of it.

I tried on a pair of shorts (which have never fit me even when I was smaller) and felt super crap because (surprise) they still don’t fit me.

Now I’m going to back up a year. Last year was a super tough year for me mentally - a lot of battles and negativity going on inside my head (battles I am still fighting today). I will get there but I can recognise how far I’ve come. For a while, I was just trying to make it through an hour at a time. Now I’m finding my battles are more moments rather than days.

At the time doing any kind of fitness was not an option - wrong headspace, wrong time, wrong everything. But at the beginning of the year I made the effort to go back out running. Had been thinking about it for months but again - wrong everything.

Slowly over the weeks (and following couch 2 5k) I have built myself and my body up. I am running faster and longer than I ever have before.

Now, I’m in my final week of the programme and just this morning I was able to run nearly (so, so nearly) 5k in 30 mins (fastest previous was 36mins). I put in everything but today I just didn’t make it. I was super buzzing!

And then I put on them shit shorts 🤦🏼‍♀️.

Self sabotage, I know. After going in a huff for 5 mins, I sat down and had a think over all the obstacles I have overcome lately and how something like this would have had me relentlessly pouring over for days on end.

Something has dawned on me - I am getting better not just physically (but perhaps more importantly for me) mentally.

And just like that my day has turned back around again.

Anyways, thought I’d share my day. How’s yours going?

[Whitto1539]

All the better for reading your post TulipMagoo!

We’ve all got a pair of shorts, a top or a pair of jeans we keep in our wardrobe for when we regain our beach body!! My problem is that flares and winged collars went out of fashion decades ago!!😀

You have obviously come a long way and achieved a greater sense of well-being and don’t let a pair of shorts ruin all that good work👍

Keep going and have a great graduation run 🥳🥳👏👏

[TulipMagoo Graduate in reply to Whitto1539]

Thank you so much. A pair of shorts?? I know it’s so silly. Thank you again

[Oldgirlruns Graduate]

May I just say don’t worry about the shorts? I have several items of clothing in my wardrobe, in particular a very nice (and expensive!) pair of trousers which probably only fit me (just!) for a short time after I bought them. I know they’re unlikely ever to fit me again and just to prove it I try them on every so often when I’m ‘feeling thin’. And no, they don’t! But throw them away? Not bloomin’ likely!

[TulipMagoo Graduate in reply to Oldgirlruns]

Haha that’s how I feel! I will fit into these! But today I am ok with that.

[MartinKH Graduate]

Well done you, you are making massive progress physically and mentally.

What’s a pair of shorts compared to that? Nothing.

For what is worth, I’ve lost about 7kgs since starting C25K and I’ve also got a pair of shorts that still don’t fit me. I think I’m going to ditch them.

Well done 👍 again, and happy running 🏃‍♂️🏃‍♀️💪😎

[TulipMagoo Graduate in reply to MartinKH]

I really can’t measure any sort of success against a pair of (scabby) shorts - but for that second there I did. But losing 7kgs? Well done!! I’m sure that was a lot of work but you must be feeling the benefits!

[MartinKH Graduate in reply to TulipMagoo]

Very well done again on your progress, and keep up the great work 👍

[TulipMagoo Graduate]

Thank you for your very lovely posts. You have been very kind, we all have these clothes we WILL fit into once we’re all fit. These shorts will haunt me - they don’t even fit! But I will still hold onto them..

However, my very, very favourite part of today was my recognition of the battle I won over my own head. I was able to take a negative, process it rationally and turn it into a positive. Here’s my win!!