I knew it was coming..I got told! I never meant to find out; why spoil it for myself eh? (ho-hum!). Anyway, for a few days then leading up to this run, I kept thinking about it, overthinking it to be honest, so by lunchtime today, I'd convinced myself that I'd call it a day. I shan't spoil it for those behind me and don't want to know, but this week was in my mind the one that would be the wall too high to get over, too wide to go round... esp. more than once? So that's that! I enjoyed the shorter runs (eventually), knowing in not too many minutes time I will have some recovery walking time, but this week... well this week was going to be too much. Done!
I've lost a bit of weight, feeling good thanks, and as I get to stay in hotels now and then (through work) with food and drink paid for, I should make the most of it, chill out now , I've proved something to myself, relax (my mind had convinced me).
I didn't rush home from work, stopped to shop then poodled on home. It was only once I dropped my bags down, sat down at my laptop (again) that it sprung to mind (again) that all I really do all day, every day is sitting, sitting, sitting! My brain gets exercise, but my body really doesn't. I remembered instantly how good I felt finishing week 6, pleased, proud, getting lovely comments and great encouragement from fellow C25K'ers on this forum (my only, but best support network btw) so thought, sod it! (apologies), I've started this thing, come this far. So got changed and as I opened the app, and the front door, MJ told me what's going to go on ( I told him I knew already), so set off on the 5 minute walk. I felt a little more anxious than previous runs but told myself I'd do my best and that's the best anyone can do.
The last leg (no pun intended) was tough, legs became very heavy, but the momentum, stamina and successes built up over the previous 6 weeks, winning a number battles with the mind demons, kept me jogging on to the end, and I feel mighty pleased with myself, if not a little cross also for almost putting myself off.
Folk like me take strength from this - you will no doubt have doubts, but please push on and push through them, relax and jog on. Have good tunes to sing along to (in your head, or out loud, your shout). You have my admiration and support and I wholly respect those who have finished this thing - I will too, I promise myself (back in the game!).
W7R1 - how things change!
W7r1 that was so hard
Surprising myself... but app problems
W7R1 the Buttermere bound
W7R1- a positive day :)
