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AJ31
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I'm sure this is pathetic but I did week 4 tonight after all my dreading last week and when hubby said well done I burst out crying!!

Thing is he runs triathlons and plays footy every week and never stops training hence he doesn't really get my weight struggles. He tries and he is always kind but I know deep down he feels I have no willpower and before tonight i thought he was right. I haven't surprised myself in years I'm oddly happy with the run but sad at the realisation of how much self esteem I must have lost over the years.

It must be the rain making me melancholy.

Thank you everyone who commented last week it truly did help me tonight, I slowed my pace, I didn't overthink it and I've stopped looking imagining how difficult each week might be

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backintimeGraduate

Absolutely brilliant ! I'm so glad this is helping.

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MuddledGardenerGraduate

Try not to think about what you lost in the past. Instead, think about the progress you are making, and all the positive things that will naturally follow in its wake.

To get this far, you have demonstrated willpower, and it will take you right through the program, because, as you progress, your willpower will grow. You will develop determination that you didn’t know you had, and your self-esteem will start to blossom.

Good luck in your journey, and keep us posted with your progress. 😊

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UnfitNoMoreGraduate

Great job. That self esteem is there now, don’t worry about misplacing it for a few years. There’s a fair few of us who shed a tear or two after some of the runs, I know I did! Enjoy the next one.

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GranspeedGraduate

Aha! You’re getting there. 👏🏼 Brilliant. Celebrate your success and your progress. And hang on to that new found self esteem. Look what you can do!

And cheers for hubby, who is paying attention and sees your effort and your progress. 👍😊

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AJ31 in reply to Granspeed

He is a trooper, thank you

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JaoJao

I’ve had loads of emotional moments during this journey, it is normal xxxxx

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alisonr54Graduate

Well done 👍 you can do this and you’ve already come so far! It is quite an emotional journey. I’m just about to start week 9 and I really can’t believe I’m here x

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AJ31 in reply to alisonr54

Wow, week 9. Massive achievement. Well done you xx

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Munchbunch7

Reflecting on the past is a waste of energy - think future and go for it - there is no competition either, my hubby much fitter than me but it spurs me on - and we can relax with a glass of something at the end of the week and not feel bad about it - keep going...

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Sarah1cGraduate

Congratulations what an achievement x

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GoGo_JoJoGraduate

Well done on getting through w4.👏👏👏🎉

Has your hubby ever actually said that he thinks you have no will power? 🤔 Or are you maybe projecting your internal gremlins onto him?

This programme is about so much more than just running. It's about re-instilling a sense of pride and belief in ourselves, giving us the chance to acheive pretty much every week slowly rebuilding confidence in not just what we can do but who we are.

Yes it can be a wake up call but better to have it now and rebuild stronger and even more fabulous than before than to not wake up at all.

Most of us have felt the same. Life brings us down over the years. This gives us the chance to climb back up and reach heights we never even dreamed of 👍😉😁

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AJ31 in reply to GoGo_JoJo

Thank you, I absolutely agree they are most likely my gremlins and self doubt. Thank you so much for you kindness, the comradaree of this group has been amazing

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NewRunner4Graduate

Fantastic, well done you, you deserve to be proud of yourself. I think we should all be celebrating all the weekly progress as it’s not easy changing from doing absolutely nothing to getting out there.

The C25K journey has been a bit of an eye-opener for me as it started as me trying to do something to improve general fitness and planning to just have a go and see what happens, certainly never thinking of myself as a “runner”. Now I’m in week 6 and can’t believe I’ve done this.

Enjoy your progress and everyone else’s on this forum!

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notquiteretiredGraduate

Well done AJ31, you are doing great👍😊, just keep it slow and steady like your fellow snails and tortoises on here and you be fine🐢🏃‍♀️😊

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Comfortnotspeed

You go girl.Remember this is for you. Get that head out of your shoulders and chin up. You got up and rocked week 4!!!!! 💪

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JaniceG68Graduate

Well done! I also have felt so emotional during the programme especially when the longer runs started. Usually when Laura was telling me “you’ve run a whole 28” minutes” etc that I felt myself welling up thinking “yes I am actually doing this!” Keep going - the feeling gets better 😊🏃🏻‍♀️👍

Nothing wrong with getting emotional because there are a lot of feelings on this journey. i have felt relief, disbelief, surprise, a loss of confidence, pride and much more (not on the same run, I hasten to add!). i have also found that this group is amazing. keep posting, keep running and keep making brilliant progress.

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