20 whole minutes 20 freaking whole minutes of running. I did it!!! Me!! Me who hated exercise. Me who never thought she'd ever run for fun. Me the overweight couch potato that would rather of watched Netflix than run 5 weeks ago. Me!!
I gave up today. I managed the half way 10 minute point and gave up. My legs ached I couldn't breathe it was hot and the beach was packed. I tried weeving in and and around people but it just made me feel self conscious and I felt everyone was looking at me and judging. That probably wasn't the case but sometimes I let my anxiety get the better of me. So I stopped turned around and walked home. I stood outside my front door angry and upset with myself. I'm not a quitter. So I jumped on here and had a nosey around at other people's previous posts and all the comments saying 'you can do this' 'you are ready.' I put my flat keys away and walked in the opposite direction of the beach, this time towards the cycle track. It was quite and I felt more comfortable in my own skin. Over and over I kept saying out loud 'you can do this' 'you've got this.' I ran and I kept on running. I wanted again to give up in the first couple of minutes but this was all in my head and I have realized now that running is also as much about training your brain aswell as your body. I have showed myself just how strong I really am. I am proud. To think in week 1 I struggled to run a full minute and I've just run 20 it feels incredible.