Last night, like a malevolent tooth fairy, the running gremlins slipped in. They poured concrete into my spinal column, placed doubt in my mind, sucked me dry of energy, tightened my muscles and delayed my start until the heat of the midday sun! Oh and I had a Paula Radcliffe moment! Well not quite, but I wish I'd been before I left home! I tell my kids that every day. School boy error!
Taking confidence from @sallenson I decided to run without help from Laura too. Mistake. I had to keep looking at my watch and by Christ, time passes slowly when you do that!
So many times I wanted to stop. It's not happening today. Various landmarks on the route early on in the run seemed to take an age to reach. I felt exhausted and beaten before I really got going. I can't do this today. It's not happening.
"Don't you dare stop! Slow up if you need to but don't bloody stop now"!
.. And repeat...
I don't know how I managed my 30 minutes today. Other days I've trotted on for 35 minutes or so. Today I collapsed at 30 minutes and 2 seconds!
And in hindsight, it's my proudest run yet. Not fast. Not comfortable. No gliding path beneath me. But I did it. I bloody finished.
Today was not muscle building. Today was bulking up the mind. Runs won't always, or even often, come easy, so we have to learn to tough it out. Even when we really want to stop and walk!
So, it was a good run. Good because I managed to fight to the end.
Mental fortitude is a necessary element of success.
#you can do it!
2 runs to go!