Last post....

[Mummycav]

Of 2017....after the annual party at my house for family last night, known as The Cavaganza, I wondered how I would feel about my planned run for this morning, luckily I don’t suffer from hangovers so I felt ready...when I went downstairs it looked like a party had happened, BIG STYLE!!! So, already in my running kit, I began tidying...the binmen are NOT going to like when they come round in the new year!! Then, the dog looked at me with his ‘walkies’ eyes so off we went, I used this walk to get me warmed up...got back, shoved the dog through the door & off I went to the park...IT WAS PACKED!!! and I’m not surprised, it was a truly beautiful morning....I wanted to run today because I knew that I would be able to spend 20/30 minutes with my Mum...I long for this, but it will never happen again physically so I have to settle for having her in my thoughts & selfishly I wanted to do that alone today, so I did...& I ran into the memories of her as my mind wandered over the years...the tears started rolling down my cheeks as I sobbed and ran...god knows what people thought as I ran passed them...but I wasn’t thinking about them and their dogs, or what kind of Christmas they’d had or what they might’ve got for presents...no, I was just thinking about my Mum...my wonderful, beautiful, caring, selfless Mum who I am proud to be a part of and proud that she is a part of me & I am lucky to have had her all those years as I have 2 little boys in my life who will probably not remember their Mum & for me with my children, fills me with dread....so as I post my last post of 2017 I want to wish all my running family a happy, healthy 2018....cherish your families & live life to the fullest xxxx big love from Bev xxxx

[TJMazz Graduate]

Awe that has made me cry. Lovely that you can use your running to spend time thinking about wonderful memories of your lovely Mum and also a special friend. Wishing you 2018 filled with love and happiness. Enjoy every moment with your family and keep on running 🙋🏻🤗💕😘

[ejvcruns Graduate]

Bev, much love to you for 2018.

[Hidden]

This is a funny time of year- so much joy and so much sadness..... I hope you have a good year in 2018. Lots of great runs ahead MC x

[Mummycav Administrator Graduate in reply to Hidden]

It is...I’ve had a lovely, lovely Christmas but New Year’s Eve is when I lost my Mum & although it’s 8 years ago it’s still a painful day...looking forward to carrying on my running in 2018...happy new year to you too x

[secksy34 Graduate]

that made me cry x such a beautiful post x all the best in 2018 to you and all x

[quirkybee Graduate]

Lovely post Bev, totally relate to what you've said too, in terms of my dad passing 8 years ago. I visit my mum best I can each day from work, she has Alzheimers and is only 71. Good mental health, but memory slowly failing together with other associated conditions. But, we have to do our best, look after our dear ones and cherish every moment we can. Pastimes like running can help bring these thoughts even more forward in our minds and give us time to think, cry, and mourn our loved ones.

Wishing you and yours a happy new year and hope it is filled with good health, happiness and many super groovy running moments 🤗😊😙 xx

[Cornet-Carolyn Graduate]

What a lovely post. It's so nice to have time to spend alone with your memories of Mum.

I hope you have lots of wonderful runs in 2018 🏃‍♀️

[Hidden]

Oh Bev what a thought provoking post, making me smile and cry at the same time. I love the idea of a Cavaganza party and as my Italian friends say your house is not messy it is well used!

But to your thoughts of your mum and your very dear friend, my heart goes out to you. The way you love and remember your own mum, I am sure will help you with those two little boys who have lost so much, but have a very loving presence of you in their lives.

I am happy you ran today, that was a great thing to do and I hope you have a happy and healthy 2018 too.

[SaskAlliecat Graduate]

I'm glad you were able to get out and get lost in your thoughts remembering those you've lost. Running is so great for that. Wishing all the best for 2018 and looking forward to reading of your adventures here.

[Shelby1973 Graduate]

Aww mummycav lovely post. All the best for 2018 xx

[icklegui Graduate]

Thank you so much for sharing your feelings ... it is a thought-provoking privilege to read your posts. Here's to all, in whatever form they are with us x

[misswobble Graduate]

I was only a kid when I lost my dad on New Year’s Eve. I have never liked NYE since then.

[Fishypieface Graduate]

Aw MC xx. You've done something wonderful for yourself this year, learning to run. In turn that's given you precious time that you can focus purely on remembering your mum. Things happen for a reason. Joining this forum has given me the privilege of meeting people like you.... I might have a few tears in my eyes. Happy 2018 xxx

[Elfe5 Graduate]

Oh Bev, thank you for sharing- hugs winging to you. I'm glad you found time to run & remember your lovely Mum.

My Mum died over 10 years ago. Sometime in her last year she told me to live life fully after her death, to remember yes, but not with sadness for too long. I do, of course, sometimes feel sad, but I have lots of happy memories too. What she said and wanted for me somehow gives release from grief & I can't help thinking that most parents would want that for their children. Hope you don't mind me saying that, - I don't want to be intrusive. All the very best for 2018.

P.S. Love the Cavaganza!! 😄

[Sadie-runs Graduate]

Happy new year, darling Mummycav. xxx

[Sarakc Graduate]

Lovely post! I really do feel for you having lost my mum 9 years ago on 27th December. 😀

[Anthie Graduate]

What a beautifully written post! Running through memories of loved ones... Memories are like little personal treasures making us. Even if it must feel great and yet painful, you've found such a fabulous way to cherish those moments with your mother. I wish you a great New Year brimming with a lot of wonderful loving moments with your family (and a lot of running)!

[Mummycav Administrator Graduate in reply to Anthie]

Thank you Anthie ...my head is clear when I’m running and makes way for plenty of thoughts...happy new year & happy running to you too x

[Anthie Graduate in reply to Mummycav]

It's an amazing capacity you have. I'm not running well enough to be able to think at the same time: I just run and can't think, which is a kind of clarity I suppose The only thing I'm capable of is to look at my surroundings and spot the odd birds now and then. Cheers to your great posts in any case!

[Mummycav Administrator Graduate in reply to Anthie]

Bless you...on one of the podcasts Laura tells you to look about 10 paces in front of you but, do you know what? Lift that head up & move your head left & right & enjoy what’s around you...even people walking their dogs are interesting!!!! At first I just thought about what I was doing & concentrating on keeping going, but with time that changed for me...sometimes I do think about what I’m doing & concentrating on what I’m doing but I just push those thoughts aside & take myself to where I want to go xx

[CB27LJ10]

All the best for 2018 Mummy xx

[Mummycav Administrator Graduate in reply to CB27LJ10]

Hey CB27LJ10 ...how’s your running journey doing? x

[SuzyKK Graduate]

Thinking of you xxx