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Just me and my shadow...

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Completed W5R1 twice, as I suspected I would, as my running buddy was struggling with the 5 minute stints. She has now decided to repeat week 4 as she isn't feeling any accomplishment. Fair enough, I completely get that. I suggested we find a place to run where we could still run together, albeit different durations, but where we could 'look out' for each other on these dark nights (even if it meant running in random directions on a local playing field). Although I'm gunning to move on, I wasn't going to abandon her. However, she's opted to continue the programme in the gym on the treadmill because she finds it easier. Fair enough, I completely get that too. Unfortunately, the treadmill option isn't for me (I like to feel myself moving over the ground, not the ground being in control and moving under me)..!! I chose to run so I could get air in my lungs, embrace the elements and try to combat that most dreaded feeling that winter brings.

So, whilst I understand and totally respect the reasons for her choice, I suddenly feel quite lonely and daunted by it all.

Sorry to dampen the mood. I know I've got to pull on my big girl compression pants and get a grip but I'm just feeling a little :(

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Hang on, Hang on, There's loads of us here running alongside you. Don't be sad.... :(

And your running buddy will do what she needs to do and hopefully will catch you up in the next few weeks. Keep on with your running journey :)

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Millsie-JGraduate

I think it might surprise you to find you actually will like running alone, except for all of your virtual running buddies on this forum that is!

Set you run time and stick with it. When running alone you are going out of the door just for you, dont let those gremlins talk you out of going!

Enjoy 🏃🏻‍♀️👍🏼

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate

Lonely... lonely ???? On here.. we will all run with you..take us with you when you head out :)

Go you.. you have been a good friend. now it is time to let those legs of yours start going to where they want to be :)

You can do this... make sure you are safe and the right gear for the darker days , and run :)

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Debbie698 in reply to Oldfloss

I may be strange(hopefully not) but I do think about my running buddies on this forum when I am out running - never be lonely but I do enjoy running alone sometimes 👋👋

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OldflossAdministratorGraduate in reply to Debbie698

No.. I think most of us do..my fields are really crowded when I run :)

And it is great to run on a day when you know others are running:)

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vlmiller1225Graduate in reply to Debbie698

Yes!!! I do as well!!!! It’s so fun knowing y’all are (literally) an ocean away.... and we are running buddies!!!!

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J9_54Graduate

I was abandoned too but it's fine; in fact if I'm honest it's better. I don't have to coordinate times to go anymore and I can choose my route, which is a bit more urban now to ensure in lit areas. We will run with you and support you all the way in spirit if not physically. Much better out in the open that on a boring treadmill I agree. Good luck. :0)

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Kimchoc08Graduate

Hold on a moment-you are certainly not alone as we are all here running along side you, every step of the way!! What more could you want or need?

It is in you to do this with or without a running buddy and you never know you might find it easier going alone as you can set your own pace etc.

Good luck with the future runs and keep us posted on here so we can revel in your achievements 😊😊

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FishypiefaceGraduate

You can do it, no probs.... Like everyone's said, we are all here, take us with you! (Thank gawd you are passed the piggy back stage!) :) :) :) Once you've had me staggering, stumbling, grunting and coughing next to you, you'll be glad to be on your own! Seriously, you know that whenever you feel alone on a run, we'd all be there cheering you on.

Can you encourage your hubby and the dog to take it up too? Then you can listen to him gasping his way round too! :)

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Cornet-CarolynGraduate

I run on my own but know there are lots of wonderful supportive people on the forum to celebrate my progress. Keep it up and keep us posted so we can support you too 🏃‍♀️😊

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate

Hidden , Millsie-J , Oldfloss , Debbie698 , J9_54 , Kimchoc08 , Fishypieface & Cornet-Carolyn ... Thank you..!!

I had a sudden rush of vulnerability earlier, which also brought about a severe lack of motivation.

If ever faced with a 'sticky' situation, I'd like to think I could (try to) hold my own. But because every ounce of my energy gets used up when I run, I feel weak and vulnerable and know I couldn't fight off a crisp bag if it blew in my face..!! Combined with the need to have loud music pouring through my earphones, I'm effectively deaf to my surroundings too. 2 pairs of eyes look out for each other, especially in the dark. Suddenly I was one pair of eyes down 😔

Unfortunately, lately, there have been some pretty unpleasant things happening in our little town. Hence feeling the way I did.

However, fantastic hubby and guard pooch came to the rescue tonight..... again..... They hovered around the middle of the park as I chugged my way round the outside. Every so often my dog joined me as my husband ventured to the perimeter to wave my water bottle at me as I crawled past (at which point I'd shine my phone torch up under my chin and give him a Blair Witch face) 😱 ....but he never even noticed 🙈

Oh no, Fishypieface, hubby doesn't do running and, to be completely honest, that's 17 and a 1/2 stone I wouldn't want to piggy back home if he decided to try..!! 😳 He did point out that I wasn't gasping tonight - that's probably because I'd stopped breathing altogether 😂😂

So, under watchful eyes of husband and dog, I ran ... (kind of) alone in the dark tonight. It felt good and I bloody smashed it...!!! W5R3, look out, you're next 🤗

Thank you ALL for being there with me, on that dark soggy field, you have no idea how comforting that was and how big a smile you brought to my face 😊😘

Now, do I have any offers to towel off my feet...??? 😉

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Gabby08Graduate in reply to HeadInTheClouds

I really, really hate all feet 🤢 (even my own!) but honestly, chuck us your towel and I’ll do it for you. I think you deserve it after that x

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Gabby08

Ewwww, you and me both 😷😂 Oooh, thank you, very much appreciated..!! 🤗

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Cornet-CarolynGraduate in reply to HeadInTheClouds

Fantastic run, with you all the way!

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Cornet-Carolyn

You definitely were..!! Thank you 😊

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FishypiefaceGraduate in reply to HeadInTheClouds

Ah, you do make me laugh! Well done for turning it around and bloody smashing it!! You are doing so well and you will manage this on your own, maybe with your security duo in tow, but hey, people might start asking your for your autograph! And us lot will always be cheering/nagging/hollering on from the side lines. Towelling off feet.... ooo, blimey, would you look at the time... nite nite!! :) x

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Fishypieface

Thank youuuuu, I loved it..!! Haha, perhaps I need a name for them 😂 I have suggested buying him a bike 🚴 so he can wobble along beside me. However, I fear we might get competitive 🤣

Cheering/nagging and hollering is exactly what I need, along with someone to dry my feeeee ... oh ... nite nite ☹️ 😁x

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Polly2810Graduate in reply to HeadInTheClouds

Well done!! So glad to read this one! We are with you every run

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Millsie-JGraduate

Heyyyyy, i enjoyed that run. 😀

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Millsie-J

I knew you would - it's me that was the problem 😂😂 Thank you for your company 😊

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Polly2810Graduate

I can understand that totally..I am going to be going a mixture of inside and out as I am not keen on running alone at night. It’s a shame there aren’t loads of C25K clubs around so we could run in numbers...I suppose could join running club but that would still only be 1 per wk. Keep With it!!

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Polly2810

C25K clubs would be fantastic. Can you imagine the support everyone would get..?? Yet a running 'club' doesn't appeal to me (maybe it will when I can run and breathe at the same time) 😂 Thank you, I will. You too..!! 😊

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vlmiller1225Graduate

I enjoy running alone. It lets me set my own pace and sing out loud to the music! As well as talk myself through the difficult parts 😂😂

So sorry you don’t have your running buddy though. We are all here! Week 5 run 1 for me as well!!! We can do this!

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to vlmiller1225

I did rather enjoyed it, to be honest. When I burst into song on a run last week, my running buddy was horrified... I have NO IDEA why 🙉😂

You're right - we can do this, and we will..!! 😊

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CT2017Graduate

Hi I can't run on a treadmill , there's nothing to look at or enjoy, and time for me passes slower when running on a treadmill, and then I start thinking about work and get frustrated.....

I run outside, alone however at times it is lonley , so I picked my spots, the parks offer company and nodding at fellow (note the fellow..) runners, the streets when you don't need it.

I'm looking forward to my first park run , when I hope to find more running buddies

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to CT2017

The treadmill holds no appeal for me at all... So much nicer in the real world 😁

I'll get used to lone running, I'm sure. I'm also looking forward to the time when I can do a park run without fear of keeling over 🙈😂

I am glad you got out and did your run. Your husband (and dog 🐶) is a star. He should definitely start running with you🏃‍♀️🏃

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to

Thank you, I'm glad I did too 😊

He is, indeed, a star. However, some objects are immovable... my husband is one of them 😂

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Downtwo

Well done. Of course it's safety first and just feeling comfortable will make the running easier. I do hope your husband can continue to support you as clearly you are mega keen. I do hope you can carry on and finish soon. Loved the entertaining account. Very funny. Keep going xx

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Downtwo

Thank you 😊

He will continue to support me - I've told him I'm buying him a bike, so he has no choice but to come out with me. He won't run, so he can bloody well ride..!! 😂

I'll definitely keep going, I seem to have fallen in love with this 'alien' thing they call running 🤗

Happy running..!! X

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Downtwo in reply to HeadInTheClouds

Yes indeed. I am starting to enjoy it more now I am not completely knackered all the time. You might get your husband fit at the same time. That would be good x

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HeadInTheCloudsGraduate in reply to Downtwo

Yes, I think my body has now adjusted after the initial shock..!!

Oooh, I can but hope ;)

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