colonoscopy in two days - bad health anxiety

[Aussie1983]

hi all- hope it was ok to post . I’m a nervous wreck. I’ve had health anxiety since forever and I’m scheduled for a full hysterectomy- due to endometriosis and Adneymosis in one week- but I am having the colonoscopy first- as I may need a bowel resection due to my endo. I had a colonoscopy twenty yrs ago due to bowel issues and I had three polyps and was told to eat more fruit and veg. B- cancer is my main fear and I’ve struggled with for10 years of my son’s life and prior . I haven’t had blood or like bad bad pain - I do worry about the size and how many times I go- and been like (sorry tmi ) inspecting it / the bowel surgeon asked me re my history I told him - and then he books me in - in April my Ferratin was a 5- gp at the time said to take supplements. I haven’t been on them for a few months now so I dunno it was a bad period month? Mine are very heavy . I’m 40yr f/ I sit down a lot for my job (wfh insurance underwriter) one son - and I’m overweight.

Everyone tell me it’s ok - it’s precautionary it’s good thing -/ and yes I agree but my health anxiety says something completely different and I’m just on da edge to cancel this procedure .

I hope ur all doing wel sorry again for the post .

i m a mess