Was planning to run but had a nap instead.

What a week or so it has been. Since my brother died just over a week ago I have felt so shattered, I understand emotional grief can do that. Last week I did go out for a 6k and a 6.5k run. This is as far as I felt able to do which is off from the 10-12k runs I was running. My muscles feel weaker at the moment with more recovery time needed between runs. So today I had planned a run but felt so mentally tired this morning. I actually fell asleep after lunch as I was exhausted and woke up when hubs collected the kids from school. I am disappointed at not running as I feel it would help me mentally. Tomorrow is the funeral so maybe after that I will get back into my stride.

[Sadie-runs Graduate10]

Our bodies / minds have a way of taking care of us, and a nap was exactly what you needed by the sounds of things. I am so sorry for your loss; my condolences. x

[Hidden in reply to Sadie-runs]

I tried to fight the nap and encourage myself out the door but I was just not convinced I would get far down the road. I napped for 2 hours.......yet I slept like a log most of the night. I am so tired at the moment and I hope this eases soon.

[misswobble Graduate10]

If you can sleep then do it! It’ll do you good

Once the funeral is over the pressure of that is over. It’s a very emotional time and it’s a relief when it’s done. Hopefully you will have some time for yourself just to think and be still if that’s what you want to do. look after yourself! 🙂

[Hidden in reply to misswobble]

Thank you misswobble. I am hoping that after tomorrow we can all grieve in our own time without that pressure. I want to go out and run but had to realise my limitations today. I will try again on Wednesday or Thursday.

[misswobble Graduate10]

Yes, you need to do that. It’s something with no time limit 🙂

[VictoriaRuns]

I am so sorry. Be kind to yourself ❤

[ancientrunner Graduate10]

Let your body tell you what it needs. Thoughts with you for tomorrow, x

[Oldfloss Administrator Graduate10]

Listen to your body..it knows best. Thinking of you tonight and tomorrow. xx

[Bazza1234 Graduate10]

Also, I have become an adherent of the idea that we here now have an obligation to run - because we are fortunate enough to be able to do it whereas others don't It is encumbent on us now to use what we have .

[Hidden in reply to Bazza1234]

This is true and I want to run for my brother but I have less energy at the moment. Plus I need a cardiac check as there is no answers to why he died.

[JaySeeSkinny Graduate10]

We always say listen to your body. Well your body needs rest and sleep at the moment - and no wonder, it is a terrible, emotional time you’re going through. So don’t beat yourself up about not running or “only” running 6.5k, the running will be there when you need it and if you need a break then take it.

Hope the funeral goes to plan tomorrow - and sorry about your brother.

[skysue16 Graduate10]

My thoughts are with you.....keep strong

[pollyp1 Graduate10]

None of this is unusual. It takes the time it takes and if your body / mind want to sleep, sleep. The great thing about running is that it'll be there when you're ready; yes, you might have to run within your means for a while but you'll get there. Thinking of you tomorrow.

[Realfoodieclub Graduate10]

You did the right thing, your immune system will be down right now with all the stress, if your body needs a sleep that is exactly what you should give it. The last thing you need right now is a cold or something. Thinking of you tomorrow, hope the days goes as well as can be expected. Rfc x.

[kickibro]

So sorry for your loss. Take your time in order to grieve. Run when you feel able.

[aliboo70 Graduate10]

Don't be hard on yourself it's amazing that you have the strength to do those 2 runs, must be so hard to comprehend and make sense of anything at the moment. Will be thinking of you today xx big hugs xx

[Virginia60]

Thinking of you today x

[Millsie-J]

Listen to your body and do as it asks. Look after yourself.

I will be thinking of you and your family xxx

[Millsie-J]

Listen to your body and do as it asks. Look after yourself. I will be thinking of you and your family xxx

[HeleneCorsa Graduate10]

I agree about listening to your body - if you napped for two hours after what appeared to be a full night's sleep then it is because sleep is what you need. Grief is exhausting and I think your body is reacting to that; also I think it is possibly a way the body protects the mind in moments of intense emotional stress. Running will be there for you always, and you can try again to get out there when the moment is right.

I will be thinking of you today. xx

[lyndamorag Graduate10]

Sorry for your loss, maybe it is the worry of the not knowing the cause of your brothers death that is making your body stall. Take time out to rest and remember your loved one gone. Then get that test done to for your pice of mind and that of your loved ones still with you. Take care , thoughts with you today.

[davelinks Graduate10]

RFD, so sorry to hear about your bro, but you will bounce back, don't put a time on it, take it easy..

[Bluebirdrunner Graduate10]

Thinking of you today. Hug x

[GoogleMe Graduate10]

You sensible woman Hidden . It's not like you've not been out running at all which can make a person feel somnolent. You've had so much to process (and more to come)

I hope the funeral has been everything you all needed it to be.

[Lorna9339]

So sorry to hear about your brother. Take care x

[Anniemurph Graduate10]

I'm very sorry for your loss. I hope the funeral is a fitting tribute to your brother.

The roads will still be out there when you are ready.

[anapmf]

a deserved nap...take you time. And relax. Have a peaceful funeral.

[Hidden]

Thank you all. I feel emotionally drained and shattered. I need to learn to relax as I seem to have forgotten. Maybe a run will happen on Thursday, mentally I need it.